BensalemAngler
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Today is the beginning of a new day. I am over being scared and the feeling of not having control. It is time to start living again, going out to dinner, taking my family fishing, going to the store, and just being with my family. I will not be controlled by this anymore.
I have to understand there is nothing more I can do. And I can handle it. No more woe is me's, or whys. Who cares this is my life so it is time to start dealing.
Things must get better and if they do not, then so be it. I am arrogant and strong.
Side note, does anyone have premonitions. I use to think I was just jinxing my son. But when I look back I have predicted 6 of 8 of my son's szs. Sometimes I see them other times I just have a feeling and know. I saw the one at the beach days before it happened, I got a since a couple of hours before the last 2. When my son had his last one at school I felt it before and during it happening. Odd I know but who knows.
It is time to be strong...
I will have to give up on me but hey I am 34 now this is no time for me. I do not need dreams or to recharge my batteries.
I have to understand there is nothing more I can do. And I can handle it. No more woe is me's, or whys. Who cares this is my life so it is time to start dealing.
Things must get better and if they do not, then so be it. I am arrogant and strong.
Side note, does anyone have premonitions. I use to think I was just jinxing my son. But when I look back I have predicted 6 of 8 of my son's szs. Sometimes I see them other times I just have a feeling and know. I saw the one at the beach days before it happened, I got a since a couple of hours before the last 2. When my son had his last one at school I felt it before and during it happening. Odd I know but who knows.
It is time to be strong...
I will have to give up on me but hey I am 34 now this is no time for me. I do not need dreams or to recharge my batteries.