So why don't I feel so good ?....

[TeeTees]

Well, as you all know by now, and if you don't "where have you been ?" (hehe), Today was my last day at my current workplace.

I had a look back on my life at the workplace whilst sitting infront of the telly last night, looking for some kind of inspiration as I needed a reminder of why I'm leaving.....and the next thing you know, I'm back in those days of being over-worked, and the boss and people around you wanting more and more and more out of you. This kinda made me realise that it's a good thing I'm doing, as a person in my position (as you're all aware) is in NO need of stress AT ALL.

So, I made my way to work this morning, not really feeling excited by it, and not feeling sad either....just kinda numb.

I took loads of cakes and biscuits in for everyone to munch away on, and in return they kindly gave me a watch out of a collection they had done for me - a very nice watch too, I must say.

But after all I've been through over the past six months in that place, I feel as though I should be kicking my heels, doing cartwheels, and welcoming happiness and freedom back into my life....

......but I don't feel that way. I just feel numb - kinda like I'm not smiling, and I'm not crying either.

Why do I feel this way ?....I'm confused.

[Belinda5000]

It looks like you just weren't sure how to feel so you you didn't want to show any emotion.
Your unsure at work but it's coming out now .
The stress wont be there from work.




Belinda

[RobinN]

Change has a way of doing that to you TT. When you know what the next "thing" is, and you are settled, I bet you will be in a totally different frame of mind. Just tell yourself, you will be okay, and luckily life has many paths to choose from.

Hang in there.

[seizures4ever]

I agree with Robin.

It's also been a long week for you...seizures, training someone else to do your job, studying, job interviews, and now the last day of work.

It's no wonder that you are not sure how to feel! It's been a roller-coaster of a week for you!

Get some deserved rest TT, watch a good TV show or movie, kick your feet up and praise yourself for making it through the week.

All the best. -Julie

[skillefer]

You feel numb because as much as you might have hated it, every morning you had something that you could expect. That, and as lowsy as your supervisor might have been, you probably had made some friends there. So your brain feels torn....do you feel angry or happy,or sad?? It's not that unusual.

[Georgiagirl88]

Hey Tees,

I think it is the uncertainty of things and the change as well. Whenever we change our staus quo it can be unsettling to us. Completely understandable. It takes us out of our safety zone. I think you are moving on to bigger, better things and you will be just fine!! You just wait!! Enjoy your break!! : )

Michelle

[brain]

......but I don't feel that way. I just feel numb - kinda like I'm not smiling, and I'm not crying either.

Why do I feel this way ?....I'm confused.

Sorry you're feeling this way TT,
but if it's of any comfort to you,
C'mon down and spend some time
with me and you'll be screaming
"EEEEEEEEEEE-yaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!"

(And you'll be PM'g poor MR. B to
death about where was his mind
when he considered me in this position?)



Just kidding! Hope the stress and all
will evaporate, wished I had some sort
of a "Midas Touch" and can make the
entire world 'golden and lovely'.

Here's some BRATS for you to make
you feel better:

[TeeTees]

Thanks for all the support again everyone, I'm so glad I know you all.

Well, I took a long weekend break again in Cornwall. It wasn't very sunny this time though, and pretty darn cold during the night <brrrr>

I kinda felt as though I really needed to 'escape' the feeling of numbness that I had. I still feel a little bit strange not having to go into work Tomorrow, but have booked with an Agency in the morning so that I can enrol with them - they rang me on the way to Cornwall on Friday with a job suggestion, so we'll discuss that and any other vacancies Tomorrow (gets me out of the house huh?).

Still, it was real nice to get that break away from my hometown, and everything that had been going on, what with finishing at work.

As per my typical holiday events, it had to end on a low with me having a seizure in bed this morning....and there I was thinking I'd done pretty well all weekend (doh!).

PS. Brain : you really don't want to offer ME a chance to pop over to Florida....lol (if my 6 lottery numbers come up one weekend, I could end up being your neighbour !!!)