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Only you all will understand this...
I am getting deja vu like crazy today (and the last few days) and it's making me feel like I'm going crazy! I don't really know if it's seizure related or not because I'm not getting as much of the weird rising-stomach feeling I often get with it as well (though my hands feel funny/sweaty like I'm nervous or something, and that happens sometimes), but the fact that I can't remember what the deja vu was tells me it probably was. It usually feels really weird at the time and then I can't remember it 3 minutes later. Gah! I think KNOWING that the deja vu COULD be seizure related is making it even worse. I'll think about something, and that thought will be really familiar, and then I'll wonder if that thought was familiar for whatever reason, the next thing I do feels really familiar, and I'll question that too. I KNOW people think the same things more than once, and this is why I feel like it's making me crazy! Because I can't figure out if what I'm thinking/looking at/doing really IS familiar, or if I'm having seizure activity. I'm also having the "remembering dreams" sequence I get a lot when I am having partials/deja vu, but again, without the other weird sensations I usually get, so that is what is making it weirder for me.
Anyone else feel the same way about your deja vu??? Like you're going insane or something because you're trying to figure out what's really real and what is "in your head"?
On other notes... Had an MRI yesterday for the first time since my very first seizure two years ago. I think this one actually took more pictures because I was in there for a hell of a long time and then I did it with contrast, and I don't remember that happening the first time I went through an MRI (of course, I have forgotten many things since then). AND I went to a neuropsychologist on Wednesday. I'll have the full write-up on Monday, but he noted I make up words (I can't remember the term for it), which I did notice myself doing and caught it... I guess his job is to catch those things, but nobody else has ever really noticed me doing it before (it's funny too, because WRITING is my strong point, but I tend to have issues with speaking sometimes). I guess this is common in those with something misfiring in the left temporal lobe area (where my neurologist suspects my seizures to be starting at). I also have awful verbal recall and can't put together puzzles with shapes... haha, spatial/visual orientation, or something along those lines. I guess that would explain why I am constantly getting lost. When I told him about my misadventures while driving before I ever had any known seizures he asked about mini strokes and asked if I'd had an MRI anytime recently (this was the day before I got the MRI) I'll be able to report more on Monday from that experience
I still don't know my EEG results, but I'll find out more about that with the neurologist in a week and a half or so.
And now I feel weirdly sad/nostalgic for no reason. And the hands-feeling-weirdly-nervous and now it's in my feet is continuing (but no deja vu at the moment). Weird.
I am getting deja vu like crazy today (and the last few days) and it's making me feel like I'm going crazy! I don't really know if it's seizure related or not because I'm not getting as much of the weird rising-stomach feeling I often get with it as well (though my hands feel funny/sweaty like I'm nervous or something, and that happens sometimes), but the fact that I can't remember what the deja vu was tells me it probably was. It usually feels really weird at the time and then I can't remember it 3 minutes later. Gah! I think KNOWING that the deja vu COULD be seizure related is making it even worse. I'll think about something, and that thought will be really familiar, and then I'll wonder if that thought was familiar for whatever reason, the next thing I do feels really familiar, and I'll question that too. I KNOW people think the same things more than once, and this is why I feel like it's making me crazy! Because I can't figure out if what I'm thinking/looking at/doing really IS familiar, or if I'm having seizure activity. I'm also having the "remembering dreams" sequence I get a lot when I am having partials/deja vu, but again, without the other weird sensations I usually get, so that is what is making it weirder for me.
Anyone else feel the same way about your deja vu??? Like you're going insane or something because you're trying to figure out what's really real and what is "in your head"?
On other notes... Had an MRI yesterday for the first time since my very first seizure two years ago. I think this one actually took more pictures because I was in there for a hell of a long time and then I did it with contrast, and I don't remember that happening the first time I went through an MRI (of course, I have forgotten many things since then). AND I went to a neuropsychologist on Wednesday. I'll have the full write-up on Monday, but he noted I make up words (I can't remember the term for it), which I did notice myself doing and caught it... I guess his job is to catch those things, but nobody else has ever really noticed me doing it before (it's funny too, because WRITING is my strong point, but I tend to have issues with speaking sometimes). I guess this is common in those with something misfiring in the left temporal lobe area (where my neurologist suspects my seizures to be starting at). I also have awful verbal recall and can't put together puzzles with shapes... haha, spatial/visual orientation, or something along those lines. I guess that would explain why I am constantly getting lost. When I told him about my misadventures while driving before I ever had any known seizures he asked about mini strokes and asked if I'd had an MRI anytime recently (this was the day before I got the MRI) I'll be able to report more on Monday from that experience
I still don't know my EEG results, but I'll find out more about that with the neurologist in a week and a half or so. And now I feel weirdly sad/nostalgic for no reason. And the hands-feeling-weirdly-nervous and now it's in my feet is continuing (but no deja vu at the moment). Weird.
