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Hi I am from Boston. I have been treated for complex partial seizures. It has been written that if you have epilepsy , on the left side, you will have depression. I have been told that if you have epilepsy you must be depressed. There is no way around this. What are your symptoms: Do you feel strange to yourself, out of body, anxiety attacks pick at clothing, feel like a ghost or feel numb. Things seem to far away? Perception problems?
I have left TLE and I've only read that epilepsy increases the likelihood of depression as high as 30%.
Studies say that a lotbof factors go into depression with people with e, but the biggest thing is not being on the same wavelength as others. I remember feeling like that as early as kindergarten. Of course it was never me that pointed it out, it was other children and adults, and I never knew what was wrong with me...until I started having seizures.
Seizures for me began at age 13, so I grew up very down on myself for not being able to live as others did.Disappointing parents, and I was unable play college sports, join the military or fly planes, things I built my life around doing. In high school had seizures before many big events in my life, social and academic. Studies say that dissatisfaction with life along with a "stickler" personality are precursors to the depression.
When I take medication my libido drops like crazy, and I think slower than others. I get paranoid that doctors and Eugenics organizations create AED's to remove people with e from the gene pool. Paranoia is also a symptom and a trait that can drive people away...also adding to the depression.
Basically a lot of little things that are out of our control, including living the only life we have with an uncurable chronic brain condition. A lot of the sadness is avoided when you have a feeling of success and sense of belonging as you deal with this.