Help I Think I've Had A Wobbler!!!!!!

[Elaine H]

Hi All

I have been sitting in the garden all day in brilliant sunshine, I was feeling a little bit tired, and I was working on my University coursework, so all in all a pretty good positive day, so why oh why did I find myself in bed, fully dressed, all my make up on, and totally disorientated, I guess I've had a Complex Partial, SHIT!! I was doing so well, Mark went back to work at the fire station today, he's been off looking after me for a month since my surgery, so I guess I was feeling a little bit lonely, do you all enjoy your own company, or do you prefer to be in company? I don't mind being on my own when I'm not in "wobbly mode" I was ok this morning, no auras or anything, so to suddenly be sitting in the garden enjoying the sunshine one minute, and then to find yourself back in bed about two hours later was terrifying!! Will I ever be completely free from this awful condition?! I'm determined to stay upbeat and positive, it's the only way to deal with it right?

I have just been in tears in the garden, I hate self pity, you do wonder sometimes though don't you, if life will ever get back to normal? I've been thinking about my mum today aswell, I lost her just before Xmas, and I would so love to give her a ring at times like this, bless her.

Anyway, I just wanted to pour my heart out to you guys, I hope you are all ok?

Loadsalove

Elaine x

[Bernard]

I'm so sorry to hear that Elaine. Maybe you got sunstroke/heatstroke (which could trigger a seizure)? I don't know how hot it is over where you are, but sitting out in the sun over here can definitely do that.

[Wally]

Sorry to hear about your day Elaine. Maybe it is just part of the healing process huh? You just had part of your brain yanked out of your head! You can't expect the rest of your brain to just pick up the slack over night huh? Makes sense to me anyway. Have you tried meditation? Stay tough!!!!

[morgan381]

So sorry to hear that, Elaine. Maybe it's just part of the healing process...(hopefully). I know it's easier said than done, but try not to let it get you down. Enjoy your gardening. I don't know what you consider a warm front or heat wave there in the UK, but I hope it's nice. We're having absolutely hellish weather here...the official high yesterday was 105, but it was 107 at my house!

[Elaine H]

Hi Bernard

Thanks for that, it was unusual for me to have any problems today, it was 30 degrees, absolutley glorious here, I was concentrating on my coursework and not daydreaming. I didn't sleep too well last night, so that may have been a factor, it is just so hot! I'm being so good aswell, I'm takingmy medication, trying to cut down on red wine, although I got a bit hammered at our BBQ Saturday night, so maybe it was just that catching up with me eh?

I'm staying positive, like Wally said, I've jus had part of my brain "yanked" out of my head, I can't expect miracles, I have been so much better than the months leading up to the surgery, so I'm not going to let it set me back.

Thanks for all your wonderful support on this amazing website!

Best Wishes

Elaine

[Elaine H]

Hi Wally

I haven't tried meditation, I find it hard to sit still for five minutes let alone meditate, I would try it though if there were any classes local to me that I could get to, my mum used to do it years ago.

Like I just said to Bernard, I'm not going to take this as a setback, I got totally hammered Saturday night on red wine, so I guess that wouldn't have helped.

Thanks for getting back to me mate, I so appreciate everyone's support, and I hope all is well with you?

Cheers

Elaine x

[josieb]

Oh Elaine:

So sorry to hear about your bad day. I know you've been doing so well, and hopefully, what you've experienced today is just part of the healing process. It hasn't been that long. I give you credit for trying to keep the positive outlook. That's the best thing you can do. Believe me, I know it's hard, but try to be strong. Please let us know how things are going. You're defiinitely in my thoughts.

Wishing you well,
Josie

[Elaine H]

Hi Morgan

Thanks for your support! I'm not going to let it get me down, and it's been 30 degrees here today, whatever that is in "old money" bloody hot for the UK, like Bernard said, that could have triggered problems, but I was sitting studying my coursework, and resally focussed so there was no real reason for it to have happened, more likely when I'm sat doing nothing, never mind, I'm still smiling, and I'm not going to let it get me down.

I hope all is well with you in sunny Texas? I'm supposed to be coming over to the States next March to pick up the bout for a Carribean Cruise, as long as I can get back to work and start earning some money again, otherwise it will be the Maltese island of Gozo, I do love world travel.

Thanks again for getting back to me!

Cheers

Elaine x

[Elaine H]

Hi Josie

Bless you darling for your support, the first thing I thought when I realised what had happened was, I must contact the guys on CWE, I just leave the computer on now, it's like having company when you're at home alone isn't it?

You are right, it's probably just things settling down, I hope so, but will keep smiling, Mark will be home soon, and I've made us a nice sweet and sour chicken, I do miss being at work all day, it is driving me potty being stuck at home, I just gotta keep busy and positive!

I'll keep you posted Josie, and thanks again for coming back to me, I so appreciate it!

Lotsalove

Elaine x

[skillefer]

Sorry to hear about the wobbler Elaine. As for me, I guess I prefer to be alone when those things happen. They tend to freak out other people. But I think perhaps just resting, cutting back on the wine, and making sure you get enough sleep would all be good suggestions.

[Wally]

Hi Wally

I haven't tried meditation, I find it hard to sit still for five minutes let alone meditate, I would try it though if there were any classes local to me that I could get to, my mum used to do it years ago.

Like I just said to Bernard, I'm not going to take this as a setback, I got totally hammered Saturday night on red wine, so I guess that wouldn't have helped.

Thanks for getting back to me mate, I so appreciate everyone's support, and I hope all is well with you?

Cheers

Elaine x

I've sort of fooled around with it for many years, not really knowing what I was doing. I just listened to a podcast last night that discussed Meditation and Nocturnal T/C's. In a nutshell they said that some folks don't know how to relax and so the T/C is the brain resetting itself like a circuit breaker. We handle severe individual events well, but the accumulation of many less stressful events takes a toll. Soooo maybe if done properly, we can give our brains a chance to heal and rest without taking another damn prescription!

[epileric]

I've sort of fooled around with it for many years, not really knowing what I was doing. I just listened to a podcast last night that discussed Meditation and Nocturnal T/C's. In a nutshell they said that some folks don't know how to relax and so the T/C is the brain resetting itself like a circuit breaker. We handle severe individual events well, but the accumulation of many less stressful events takes a toll. Soooo maybe if done properly, we can give our brains a chance to heal and rest without taking another damn prescription!

Wally, I can't believe the timing of you posting that! I meditate every so often but haven't for quite a while. Last night I tried but was too antsy to do more than 5 minutes so I just went to bed. Problem is that as soon as I was asleep I'd have a partial seizure. I had a total of 9 & am sooooo tired right now. I may not be having T/C's but I never thought I had trouble relaxing.

[Wally]

Wally, I can't believe the timing of you posting that! I meditate every so often but haven't for quite a while. Last night I tried but was too antsy to do more than 5 minutes so I just went to bed. Problem is that as soon as I was asleep I'd have a partial seizure. I had a total of 9 & am sooooo tired right now. I may not be having T/C's but I never thought I had trouble relaxing.

Wow! I've been doing a bit of meditation for many years for my blood pressure. Just the sight of a BP cuff or a white jacket will make my BP spike. So I can sit back and "go to my happy place" for a min or two and get a significant drop in both numbers.

I've downloaded several podcasts on meditation, maybe they have some good info to help.

[Nancy]

Oh Elaine -- that really sucks.
Did your neurologist or surgeon say that "might" be possible while the brain tissue sort of settles down. That tissue took some serious hits.
Let's hope and pray it was the first and LAST complex partial and it doesn't happen again.

[seizures4ever]

Elaine (((HUGS)))

I am so very sorry to hear about your seizure and how it has affected your spirits today.
By the tone of your message, it sounds as though you defininitely needed to grieve over this crappy day...I'm glad you came to us. I hope that tomorrow is better and you bounce right back up on your feet! Take care and let us know if you need us!
-Julie

[homemom360]

instead of saying sorry, let me say, tomarrow will be better, if for no other reason than you will be able to say you made it through today. give yourself a hug and take a deep breath. it takes a lot of strength to get through this. just remember as long as you're here you're never alone.

[Meetz1064]

I'm sorry, Elaine. Give yourself a hug from me. But really, so far, this isn't that bad, considering the time frame, I think..........Take a deep breath, blow it back out, and come back here to unload if you need to!

Gentle hugs,

Meetz

[Elaine H]

Hi Guys

I have just got to say a big thankyou to everyone who took the time to reply to my plight yesterday, as I said, I hate self pity, and I walked up the garden in tears feeling like a total dickhead!! I am so not gonna let it knock me back, it is probably like some of you suggested "things settling down" I guess thats quite a deep important part of the brain to have removed eh? I thought they could have maybe padded it out with bubble wrap!??! I hope it doesn't jiggle about when I start jogging! I noticed too, that since this second op, I have a really short fuse, and extreme bursts of emotion, especially happiness, which isn't a bad thing I guess! Anyone relate to that? I still have no regrets over the surgery, and things have been a 100 times better compared to before

Just to let you know that I'm back to my old self today, and in the kitchen doing what I love best singing while I'm ironing.... here's a joke, I apologise if you've heard it.

This bloke came home from work with a huge bunch of flowers for his wife, she was highly delighted with them, grabbed them, kissed him, dragged him upstairs, stripped off, threw herself on the bed, legs in the air, flung them open and said
..."Darling this is for the flowers!" He looked at her gone out for a few seconds, legs apart and smiling sweetly at him and he said "Don't be stupid woman, we must have a vase somewhere in the house!!"

Lotsnlotsalove to you all!!!!!!!!!!

Elaine xxxxxxxx

[josieb]

Elaine:

So glad to hear that you're feeling better today! Keep up with the positive attitude and keeping yourself busy. I know when I was off work after my surgery, I nearly went nuts because I was so bored - day after day. I couldn't wait to get back to work. Wishing you well!

Sincerely,
Josie

[Elaine H]

Bless you darling, what a sweetie, I have had so much incredible support from you guys! If I can ever return the favour and you need a friend, you know where I am, you are so right, we are never alone while we are on CWE!! Thankyou my friend!

Lotsalove

Elaine xx