I almost didnt start this threat, but I am lost

[C0urt]

well more lost than usual atleast.

I was going to start it, and then I wasn't, then I tried again.
usualy I avoid pain killers and stuff at all cost.

this time I was in pain from a lot of places so I took some percoset for the first time in a long time. It was nice warm and fuzzy for a bit and I wasn't in as much pain. then it wore off and my head hurt and my stomach hurt.

but that didnt really bother. neither did the pain, I just wanted that warm and fuzzy and relaxed feeling again. I kept wanting to take another percoset, but I also felt like it would be a poor choice. because it would be one, then two, then three. until I ran out. So i chose not to.

I have a very addictive personality, and I avoid most things because of it. I dont know if i should ask my doctor for an anti-depressant, part of me wants to, but I am afraid because i dont want to get addicted to those. I am trying not to worry about things so much, I know that's part of my stress. I just dont really know what to do next.

[epileric]

Congratulations on knowing yourself well enough that having another pill would be detrimental. Many people don't realize that about themselves until it's too late.

Having been someone who's been on anti-epileptic drug's most of his life I never took a headache pill of any kind until I was about 18 or 19. Even after that I still rarely take pills other than my daily anti-epileptic drug's & mineral/vitamine supplements.

I don't know if you believe in acupuncture but I know it's often used for all the pains you've mentioned, including addiction. The College of Chinese Medicine here in Victoria will have the students treat people for any addiction for free.

I would recommend trying a few treatments & seeing if you feel a difference, physically & emotionally.

[BuckeyeFan]

Congratualtions on your self-confidence to fight through this pain. Hopefully some of the normal over the counter painkillers will help some. You were so quick to understand it wasn't the pain relief you were seeking, but the warm and fuzzies. That is the biggest step in avoiding addictions and many other problems. I myself am TERRIBLE at procrastination. I often don't recognize it until something I have put off becomes critical.

Keep staying positive. I know it is not easy, but it sounds like you have what it takes deep down. Don't be afraid to come here for help either. Usually plenty of encouragement to go around.

[Nakamova]

Percoset has acetaminophen (Tylenol) in it in addition to the oxycodone, so not only is it addictive, but it can do real liver damage if you take too many of them in too short a time. You did the right thing in so many ways by holding off.

Painkillers are physically addictive in ways that anti-depressants are not -- so you're much better off with anti-depressant if that's appropriate for you. Check in with your doctor and have a serious discussion about the pros and cons.

I hope you feel better soon.

Best,
Nakamova

[Rae1889]

oxycodone is actually a synthetic heroin and is illegal in Manitoba without a dual Rx with a designated medical conditions. If you dont have those designated medical conditions then you must have 3 prescriptions from different doctors (ie: your psychiatrist, family doctor, and specialist)

[Meetz1064]

doing something like relaxation CDs or meditation CDs to try to re-route your thinking process away from your needs for the meds. It won't necessarily be an easy thing, I'm not saying it would be by any stretch of the imagination, but it would be a way to keep you occupied, AND it WOULD be good for you......

[joan]

I'm sorry for your hardships* I hope things get better for you soon. I applaud you for staying strong and focused on taking good care of yourself. I think you honestly need to speak to your Dr, tell him whats going on and see what he says. I also don't know you, but know, being alittle active, if youre not, helps get all the body going and helps make everything work better. Just a short walk, a little fresh air. Gives ya alittle time to clear your head. Diet plays a huge role in how you feel and we all need down time just to relax and regroup.

I know this isn't easy but I hope you can find things to make it easier on you*

I wish you well.
joan*

[RobinN]

Congratulations on saying NO to the voice inside. The more you can, the easier it is.
Do something nice for yourself when you make the better choices.

[BuckeyeFan]

Do something nice for yourself when you make the better choices.

Great idea.