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I didn't "recognize" my room although I've slept in it for years. It "felt" like there was someone around I could have sex with, like a phantom presence, but I didn't see anyone to my disappointment (I have never invited anyone to my room). Not that I knew it was my room, anyway. So I thought I would find someone's sex objects, like underwear or something. I looked around, unfortunately nobody's were around (they had no reason to, nobody's stuff is ever in my room). In the past, I did smell peoples' underwear or whatever was lying around in this state, but I do that anyway in a regular state if I get the chance, just not with so much disinhibition.
So nothing was lying around, and I masturbated to orgasm, despite my regular efforts to quit. I have had a massive sex drive for a long time. Several orgasms per day was common when I didn't control myself. After that, I regained judgement at a fairly fast rate.
I know whenever I'm going to get a cold or other sickness because I randomly smell burning carpet, particularly when something surprises me or I expect to smell something. Otherwise, I never get olfactory hallucinations. When I was a young kid, I had one auditory hallucination of a horse upon waking, but no other auditory hallucinations ever occurred.
I occasionally get unexplained intense anger coupled with lethargy, and one time this was coupled with a light green aura in the middle of my vision that appeared for like 3 seconds. I have doubts that it may have been a floater, but I've never seen a floater like that, and I wasn't looking into the sun. Oh yeah, and something I forgot to mention, sometimes when something surprises me, a tingle occurs from my right foot to usually my ankle. Read that may be related.
When I get angry, and I can't currently do anything about it, my right arm and sometimes neck starts to twitch or "tick" semi-controllably (like some people can kind of control their ticks). I remain well-controlled around people when I'm angry, and almost never show how angry I am. I can prevent myself from doing reckless things out of anger better than most people can prevent themselves. I wonder if TLE effects me every single day, can it effect aspects of the personality other than anger and sexuality?
Can it cause "deficits" too? I have a weird sense of humor. I don't think I genuinely find most funny things funny, I "try" to laugh most of the time. Every few weeks to months, something occurs that makes me laugh uncontrollably for several minutes, and nobody understands why I'm laughing. It's usually not something "inappropriate", because I don't find things inappropriate, but it's usually something outlandish that has some logical hole in it. I almost never laugh at verbal humor, mostly outlandish images created by my mind. In some video that featured a human vocal and a creature that the author joked fits the vocal, I only inferred what the creature looked like and laughed really hard, but when I saw the creature, it was no longer funny because it "made sense". Usually things are uncontrollably funny to me for a few minutes, then eventually something "clicks", and then I can never laugh to the stimulus again. Again, I rarely laugh without any effort, and I barely understand my own sense of humor.
I have no memory problems normally, in fact people are surprised when I remember things they said years ago. Something that's unusual is that I take "rational" action in my dreams, whereas most people are pretty irrational. Same with emotional situations, they don't impact my ability to be rational at all. Whereas, epilepsy would be expected to make a person more irrational.
I did some research on why I sometimes get amnesia and sexual disinhibition when I wake up, and it turns out there's a condition called "Transient epileptic amnesia", a rare condition which happens only on occasion like in my case, and involves temporal lobe epilepsy. I've also looked into TLE in the past because of my other symptoms, and it appears to fit very well. I've never had any grand-mal seizures. I'm 20 years old, I've been noticed as different quite early in life, most significantly starting maybe around 11 years old. Not sure if TLE can appear so early. It's not a big deal, not something I'm worried about, just something I find fascinating. I'm interested in what you folks think.
So nothing was lying around, and I masturbated to orgasm, despite my regular efforts to quit. I have had a massive sex drive for a long time. Several orgasms per day was common when I didn't control myself. After that, I regained judgement at a fairly fast rate.
I know whenever I'm going to get a cold or other sickness because I randomly smell burning carpet, particularly when something surprises me or I expect to smell something. Otherwise, I never get olfactory hallucinations. When I was a young kid, I had one auditory hallucination of a horse upon waking, but no other auditory hallucinations ever occurred.
I occasionally get unexplained intense anger coupled with lethargy, and one time this was coupled with a light green aura in the middle of my vision that appeared for like 3 seconds. I have doubts that it may have been a floater, but I've never seen a floater like that, and I wasn't looking into the sun. Oh yeah, and something I forgot to mention, sometimes when something surprises me, a tingle occurs from my right foot to usually my ankle. Read that may be related.
When I get angry, and I can't currently do anything about it, my right arm and sometimes neck starts to twitch or "tick" semi-controllably (like some people can kind of control their ticks). I remain well-controlled around people when I'm angry, and almost never show how angry I am. I can prevent myself from doing reckless things out of anger better than most people can prevent themselves. I wonder if TLE effects me every single day, can it effect aspects of the personality other than anger and sexuality?
Can it cause "deficits" too? I have a weird sense of humor. I don't think I genuinely find most funny things funny, I "try" to laugh most of the time. Every few weeks to months, something occurs that makes me laugh uncontrollably for several minutes, and nobody understands why I'm laughing. It's usually not something "inappropriate", because I don't find things inappropriate, but it's usually something outlandish that has some logical hole in it. I almost never laugh at verbal humor, mostly outlandish images created by my mind. In some video that featured a human vocal and a creature that the author joked fits the vocal, I only inferred what the creature looked like and laughed really hard, but when I saw the creature, it was no longer funny because it "made sense". Usually things are uncontrollably funny to me for a few minutes, then eventually something "clicks", and then I can never laugh to the stimulus again. Again, I rarely laugh without any effort, and I barely understand my own sense of humor.
I have no memory problems normally, in fact people are surprised when I remember things they said years ago. Something that's unusual is that I take "rational" action in my dreams, whereas most people are pretty irrational. Same with emotional situations, they don't impact my ability to be rational at all. Whereas, epilepsy would be expected to make a person more irrational.
I did some research on why I sometimes get amnesia and sexual disinhibition when I wake up, and it turns out there's a condition called "Transient epileptic amnesia", a rare condition which happens only on occasion like in my case, and involves temporal lobe epilepsy. I've also looked into TLE in the past because of my other symptoms, and it appears to fit very well. I've never had any grand-mal seizures. I'm 20 years old, I've been noticed as different quite early in life, most significantly starting maybe around 11 years old. Not sure if TLE can appear so early. It's not a big deal, not something I'm worried about, just something I find fascinating. I'm interested in what you folks think.
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