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I've had quite a few simple/partial/complex (not sure) over the past few days
two things:
1.
when I went to the ER postictal a while back I seem to have gotten under the impression that what they were talking with me about was somehow controlling my life - describing what I may experience as seizures as their ability to somehow control my seizures
I was totally out of it when I was there and they were describing this very complex stuff to "me"
I've been traumatized since, frankly, and am never going back to an ER again for epilepsy related issues - I'm still getting over the whole ordeal
it seems to take me a few seizures to realize that this is happening to me - they are not causing this to me
and because I'm relatively new to diagnosis I've been coping with the reality/nonreality aspects of these seizures also
are there typical psychological realization issues for a late-onset epilepsy?
I don't recall having "Seizures" other than maybe shortly prior to 2008.
frankly it all seems much more clarified after seizure periods, in dealing with the "yeah this really exists" thing I go through sometimes between seizures when I feel like an idiot making these things up - and being a dick to y'all
2.
is there any information tying in earthquakes/geomagnetic incidents with seizures? it really seems I've coincided with these Virginia quakes in an overall way - I even guessed there must have been an aftershock
I am on the Caribbean plate with Virginia afterall
ULF?
afterall, the frequency (pitch) of two things under tensile/compressive strain rises when that strain rises - until the point of breakage/slippage, which we call an earthquake
any info other than NeuroNotes'?
I love you NeuroNotes but I'd like add'l info aside from yours
or do people generally in a scientific basis concur with her info?
p.s. what types of seizures do these sound like?
freefalling sensation along with the "dejavu" thing - conscious but in the back of my head, apart from 'that' out in the world - it seems I can even almost come out of it - but it feels like it needs to complete for best results, to release all of the pressure or whatever - also gibberish talking - I even gibberish texted yesterday - I knew what "I" was doing (I think - I believe I was not vocalizing at the restaurant, or doing motions), but words made zero sense, like that part of my brain was not in access(?) - also often the I get very hand repetitive - I'm a guitarist so I'm always pretty repetitive with my hands, and obsessed with my nails - but this is a tactile sort of thing - an ordering sort of thing, like assembling an order using my hands(not like a business order, like a physical/numerological ordering - and no it's different than a guitar thing)
also the gibberishy thing seems to come from what seems like a separation between the "thing : name : association" things in the world - everything loses its association -
lasts maybe between 15 seconds to a minute
I mean, in part, I could swear seizures often nudge somewhere within the "enlightened" release that spiritual prophets etc. talk about - it's a non-associative thing completely and frankly it's another reason I don't like to fight them (the other types I've obviously had were tonic-clonic, which I have had no say in whatsoever) and just see what happens, although it can be scary as shit - because it's really not an of-this-world feeling
this question may still be a little gibberishy
lol
but man I've felt really energized today, and optimistic
two things:
1.
when I went to the ER postictal a while back I seem to have gotten under the impression that what they were talking with me about was somehow controlling my life - describing what I may experience as seizures as their ability to somehow control my seizures
I was totally out of it when I was there and they were describing this very complex stuff to "me"
I've been traumatized since, frankly, and am never going back to an ER again for epilepsy related issues - I'm still getting over the whole ordeal
it seems to take me a few seizures to realize that this is happening to me - they are not causing this to me
and because I'm relatively new to diagnosis I've been coping with the reality/nonreality aspects of these seizures also
are there typical psychological realization issues for a late-onset epilepsy?
I don't recall having "Seizures" other than maybe shortly prior to 2008.
frankly it all seems much more clarified after seizure periods, in dealing with the "yeah this really exists" thing I go through sometimes between seizures when I feel like an idiot making these things up - and being a dick to y'all
2.
is there any information tying in earthquakes/geomagnetic incidents with seizures? it really seems I've coincided with these Virginia quakes in an overall way - I even guessed there must have been an aftershock
I am on the Caribbean plate with Virginia afterall
ULF?
afterall, the frequency (pitch) of two things under tensile/compressive strain rises when that strain rises - until the point of breakage/slippage, which we call an earthquake
any info other than NeuroNotes'?
I love you NeuroNotes but I'd like add'l info aside from yours
or do people generally in a scientific basis concur with her info?
p.s. what types of seizures do these sound like?
freefalling sensation along with the "dejavu" thing - conscious but in the back of my head, apart from 'that' out in the world - it seems I can even almost come out of it - but it feels like it needs to complete for best results, to release all of the pressure or whatever - also gibberish talking - I even gibberish texted yesterday - I knew what "I" was doing (I think - I believe I was not vocalizing at the restaurant, or doing motions), but words made zero sense, like that part of my brain was not in access(?) - also often the I get very hand repetitive - I'm a guitarist so I'm always pretty repetitive with my hands, and obsessed with my nails - but this is a tactile sort of thing - an ordering sort of thing, like assembling an order using my hands(not like a business order, like a physical/numerological ordering - and no it's different than a guitar thing)
also the gibberishy thing seems to come from what seems like a separation between the "thing : name : association" things in the world - everything loses its association -
lasts maybe between 15 seconds to a minute
I mean, in part, I could swear seizures often nudge somewhere within the "enlightened" release that spiritual prophets etc. talk about - it's a non-associative thing completely and frankly it's another reason I don't like to fight them (the other types I've obviously had were tonic-clonic, which I have had no say in whatsoever) and just see what happens, although it can be scary as shit - because it's really not an of-this-world feeling
this question may still be a little gibberishy
lol
but man I've felt really energized today, and optimistic