Matthew74
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I've struggled hard, and had little success. My epilepsy has posed all sorts of problems, and now I'm disabled because of my back. I had surgery on my back Friday, felt incredible until Sunday evening, when a lot of my pain came back, and have been miserable since then.
I live alone. I tried to get my mom to come out before the surgery, but she wouldn't. My sister didn't want to come. Mom came the day after surgery, and helped a little, but for the most part she just makes everything stressful. I'm still doing everything myself, and have to do other things to keep her satisfied. (Except of course she's not.). I tried getting her a birthday cake, but she didn't want to eat it. Suggested she get a massage at the spa, but she wouldn't. I even asked her what we could do tonight for her to enjoy and relax, and she said something about making my pain meds work. I have NO emotional support.
The worst part is that, unless I improve, I won't be able to work at all. I don't have a "home" I can go to, and at this point can't really take care of myself as I should. I'm ok until spring, but then my school loans run out, and I'll be alone and on welfare or something.
My mother resents me, and in a certain way blames me for being sick. Even if she really wanted to help, I don't think she would be able. I'm at the limit of my ability to cope physically and mentally. I need somewhwere to go, or someone to turn to, but there's no one and nobody. I can live with the isolation, as I usually do, but when things like cooking and bathing get so difficult what do you do?
I live alone. I tried to get my mom to come out before the surgery, but she wouldn't. My sister didn't want to come. Mom came the day after surgery, and helped a little, but for the most part she just makes everything stressful. I'm still doing everything myself, and have to do other things to keep her satisfied. (Except of course she's not.). I tried getting her a birthday cake, but she didn't want to eat it. Suggested she get a massage at the spa, but she wouldn't. I even asked her what we could do tonight for her to enjoy and relax, and she said something about making my pain meds work. I have NO emotional support.
The worst part is that, unless I improve, I won't be able to work at all. I don't have a "home" I can go to, and at this point can't really take care of myself as I should. I'm ok until spring, but then my school loans run out, and I'll be alone and on welfare or something.
My mother resents me, and in a certain way blames me for being sick. Even if she really wanted to help, I don't think she would be able. I'm at the limit of my ability to cope physically and mentally. I need somewhwere to go, or someone to turn to, but there's no one and nobody. I can live with the isolation, as I usually do, but when things like cooking and bathing get so difficult what do you do?