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I still remember that night when my brother passed away in his sleep from I'm pretty sure a seizure because it's possible that if you have a seizure while sleeping lying perfectly flat on your back it is possible to basically swollow your toungue and pass away from lack of oxygen to the brain or also by choking on his flam whis I's pretty sure he did when the perimedic prenounced him dead.
My younger brother that found out that he wasn't breathing contacted one of my best friends and he came running like crazy because he only lives about 6 houses down the block and when he saw my brother was just in total shock!
I can't even seem to think and feel of how my brother felt when he discovered that my other brother was no longer breathing and not only that when the paramedic came and told him that he couldn't be saved!
It's just gives me chills down my spine just thinking about that nighmare of a night.
It started out as any other normal day would start out beside the fact that me Kirk the oldest brother and my friend Mike, mom, and my dad were at the Lake that day enjoying ourselves when all of a sudden when my paents went to pick up some firewood and me and Mike were in the cabin when I saw an RCMP car pull up into our drive way and all I could think of at that time was why were they here for?
Then suddenly they asked if I was one of the family members that my younger brother (MARK) was talking to them about, anyways when they told me the terrifying news that my brother had past away that night I basically went crazy for a while (not as in like a crazy man would go crazy) because the news was just unbearably shocking! Even my friend Mike had a hard time believing it for a while until he saw me basically collapse and drop down right to my knees and he tired to support me the best he could because well "how would you feel that if you were the oldest brother in the family and you just recently found out that your other younger brother just passed away?)
I'm pretty sure you get the picture hey?
Anyways my youngest brother that is now presently 16 was at the time 14 which I think would be just way too young an age to just find out that by his own very 2 eyes in front of him layed mine and his brother just in front of him lifeless!
Anyways that was Approximately just over 3 years ago but still I still mourn from his death because abck them I did a terrible thing to him because I was diagnosed with maniac depression at the time and I threw a couple punches at him to his chest and hurt him !!!!
And just by saying that I would have to say that I was definitely caring a huge guilt trip on my shoulders because he passed away even before I could apologize for that rediculously crazy behavour.
So it definitely felt like I was getting punished by god for my sins that I brought forth to my brother before he past away which was just terrible trying to attempt to smash all of the sane part of me I had at that particular part in time anyways!
ANyways after 3 months I think that he told god that since I was going through Maniac Depresion for just about 3 years non stop in a row I think he told god that enough is enough please help Kirk now because my youngest brother definitely needs a new and solid positive role model to take care of him and show him the proper way how to deal with tricky bad situation especially when it comes down to how to deal with my problematic and miserable father so to speak.
Anyways I've been diagnosed with no depression what so ever just after approximately 3 months went by after my brother (Name:Keith) had passed away and that personal nightmare of me being Maniac depressed will always haunt me when I look back in the past when I was 21 to 24 years old!
I'm now 27 years old and still have my down days but I swore to god that i would never ever go down the path to maniac depression ever again for as long as I live not only for my own well being but for my younger 16 year old brother, mom, and dads well being also.
I also cosider my 21 year old brother Keith which I will greatly love and miss for the rest of my life and beyond with all my heart as one of only 2 special gaurdian angels that GOD has hand picked and sent down to help me through hard times throughout my life is one of the greatest gift god could ever give to me!
Rest in peace Keith and know that from the bottom of my heart I will try to set the best possible role model that my brother Mark could ever ask for. OK?
Love your oldest brother Kirk!
My younger brother that found out that he wasn't breathing contacted one of my best friends and he came running like crazy because he only lives about 6 houses down the block and when he saw my brother was just in total shock!
I can't even seem to think and feel of how my brother felt when he discovered that my other brother was no longer breathing and not only that when the paramedic came and told him that he couldn't be saved!
It's just gives me chills down my spine just thinking about that nighmare of a night.
It started out as any other normal day would start out beside the fact that me Kirk the oldest brother and my friend Mike, mom, and my dad were at the Lake that day enjoying ourselves when all of a sudden when my paents went to pick up some firewood and me and Mike were in the cabin when I saw an RCMP car pull up into our drive way and all I could think of at that time was why were they here for?
Then suddenly they asked if I was one of the family members that my younger brother (MARK) was talking to them about, anyways when they told me the terrifying news that my brother had past away that night I basically went crazy for a while (not as in like a crazy man would go crazy) because the news was just unbearably shocking! Even my friend Mike had a hard time believing it for a while until he saw me basically collapse and drop down right to my knees and he tired to support me the best he could because well "how would you feel that if you were the oldest brother in the family and you just recently found out that your other younger brother just passed away?)
I'm pretty sure you get the picture hey?
Anyways my youngest brother that is now presently 16 was at the time 14 which I think would be just way too young an age to just find out that by his own very 2 eyes in front of him layed mine and his brother just in front of him lifeless!
Anyways that was Approximately just over 3 years ago but still I still mourn from his death because abck them I did a terrible thing to him because I was diagnosed with maniac depression at the time and I threw a couple punches at him to his chest and hurt him !!!!
And just by saying that I would have to say that I was definitely caring a huge guilt trip on my shoulders because he passed away even before I could apologize for that rediculously crazy behavour.
So it definitely felt like I was getting punished by god for my sins that I brought forth to my brother before he past away which was just terrible trying to attempt to smash all of the sane part of me I had at that particular part in time anyways!
ANyways after 3 months I think that he told god that since I was going through Maniac Depresion for just about 3 years non stop in a row I think he told god that enough is enough please help Kirk now because my youngest brother definitely needs a new and solid positive role model to take care of him and show him the proper way how to deal with tricky bad situation especially when it comes down to how to deal with my problematic and miserable father so to speak.
Anyways I've been diagnosed with no depression what so ever just after approximately 3 months went by after my brother (Name:Keith) had passed away and that personal nightmare of me being Maniac depressed will always haunt me when I look back in the past when I was 21 to 24 years old!
I'm now 27 years old and still have my down days but I swore to god that i would never ever go down the path to maniac depression ever again for as long as I live not only for my own well being but for my younger 16 year old brother, mom, and dads well being also.
I also cosider my 21 year old brother Keith which I will greatly love and miss for the rest of my life and beyond with all my heart as one of only 2 special gaurdian angels that GOD has hand picked and sent down to help me through hard times throughout my life is one of the greatest gift god could ever give to me!
Rest in peace Keith and know that from the bottom of my heart I will try to set the best possible role model that my brother Mark could ever ask for. OK?
Love your oldest brother Kirk!