Depression

[TeeTees]

Anybody else struggle with this ?

I feel as though I'm going through a real rough patch at the moment, and I'm typing this in my lunch-break at work, as I really don't wanna be here at the moment. I work with quite a nice bunch of people, but for some reason, inside me I'm feeling like I just wanna get up and walk.

It's really happened since I come back from my weekend break in Cornwall. On the Tuesday I turned up at work, there was a huge pile of work left on my desk. When I questioned why it was there, the 'person' told me that it's extra work that has been passed onto me due to the other person being over-worked. <grrrrr> So I responded by saying that SHE's not the only person over-worked in this place (I think this is where the depression/anxiety started), to which she replied "this is non-negotiable" - which made me mad.

I sat there and bit my tongue for a couple of days. Went and seen Bossman and asked him if he knew anything about the shifting of workloads, and he said no. I explained to him that I felt it was necessary for the other person to keep the work, and get on with it, a: so they can LEARN how to do the job, and b: cuz she's always creeping off for cigarette breaks..so don't tell me she's bogged down with work !!

Bossman agreed with me, and said he'll tell the other 'un about the circumstances.....which he hasn't done....and has now took a couple of days off work....greeeat !

I just feel as though, what with all this cr@p, plus the seizure's I been having lately, I'm just stooping into a depression (again!). Part of me would just sooo love to get up and walk out, but I've done that in previous jobs and it's hell trying to find another so easily located and with a bunch of people who aren't all THAT bad.

Maybe I should just try a ride the wave ?

I dunno. I just needed to vent off somewhere.

[speber]

...and a happy place where that person has to do the cookin'!






hope it helped,
Your Pal Speb

[LynnW]

(((((Hugs to you)))))

Sorry to hear what your going through. I can't relate to the workplace aggravation, but I certainly understand the depression. I'm in a pretty good place right now, but I have experienced depression to varying degrees off and on throughout my life. My high school years were very rough. And after my daughter, my firstborn, was born, I had an especially bad patch. We were living in a very isolated area at the time, and she was a very difficult baby. My husband was working late hours at his job an hour away, and I felt very alone. I often cried along with my infant daughter. I think the thing that has helped me the most in feeling good is having a sense of purpose or some sort of goal to work toward. I have been taking classes working toward a degree, and I do some volunteer work, so that has helped.

My husband, though, has been putting up with workplace cr@p off and on for the past 20 years. Having to do extra work because of others' incompetence really puts him in a funk. I think it comes in cycles for him, so hang in there and it will probably get better before it gets worse again, and then gets better again, etc..... He tries as much as possible to leave workplace worries at work. Sometimes it's hard to do that. For now, try to grit your teeth, and think of happy places, like Cornwall..........

[Georgiagirl88]

Hi Tees,

Hope you feel better. I think we all go through our phases of feeling low. Try to keep your head up and glad you talked to boss about the other person that can't carry their load. Tell them to cut out the cigaretees and maybe they will find time to WORK!!! I get depressed during my post ictal phase for sure..which lasts usually 24-48 hrs..but I do have my phases of feeling bad just dealing with the seizures and chronic pain. I just try to take it day by day and know that I will feel better soon. I think trying to be positive helps. It's hard to pick yourself up when you are feeling bad, I know. But you have to know it will get better! Take care Tees and feel better!!

Michelle : ))

[Bernard]

I think everyone gets down once in a while. Hope you get some sunshine soon.

[RobinN]

I also have highs and lows. Somehow over the years, knowing if I will just put one foot in front of the other, I slowly move away from the low points.

As for work, what helps me, is small goal setting. Either 15-20 time slots, or taking a chunk and rewarding myself with something when it is completed (freshening my cup of coffee or ?). I learned that there will always be slouches in this life. I will never be properly rewarded for the work that I do, yet I know how my time is spent. I know that I have done a job well done. There is only one person that I in the end have to answer to, and I want to be able to say that I used this mind and body to the best of my ability, and this honors the gifts that I was given.

If the energy is always focused on the other guy/gal, then that is energy that is wasted. We are not able to change others, but they either learn from examples such as yourself, or that ciggie break turns into the unemployment line.

Just my take on the situation.

Do something nice for yourself once in a while. You've earned it.

[TeeTees]

Thanks Guys....your kind words are much appreciated, as always. Shame we couldn't all be in the same workplace - THAT would be the best experience ever, being surrounded by the best people.

Boy oh boy, I buried my head so deep in my work this afternoon that I could have looked through to Ground Floor. The girl who passed on the work has done nothing but bitch about bossman, and the way the office has been changed around, since she got back from looking after her newborn.....it drives you nuts having to listen to that kinda rubbish all day.

I think my problem lies in the vicious circle of epilepsy and living.....

you have a szy
ou feel tired
you have another
you feel more tired
you start to feel down
the above cycle continues until you just don't know whether you're coming or going....

then my problem arises....

you're still learning a new job
you have a girl come back and start bitching about everything, throwing her weight around
nobody else has the balls to say anything and think she's great
you feel alone
you start to feel down
you have a seizure
she bothers you
you feel annoyed
your internal anger boils, but you keep your mouth shut and just get on with it
no matter how hard you try, that little anger seed has been planted
you have another seizure....

All I actually feel at this moment is that I need a little 'TeeTee time', and just want to be left alone, by the above mentioned moron, to sort my life out.

Jeez.....26 years left until retirement. 6 lucky numbers Lord, that's all I ask for

Spebs.....I hope her Husband complains about her cooking tonight !!

[LynnW]

She's probably passed off the cooking to her husband. After all, she is probably overworked at home, too.

[TeeTees]

She's probably passed off the cooking to her husband. After all, she is probably overworked at home, too.

Lynn, that's the first real laugh I've had allllll day.

Thanks...ALOT

[Birdbomb]

Here's another bright nugget for you TT,

YOU don't have to go home to HER! If you have to be with her for 8 hrs a day, poor hubby has her the rest of the time.

It's unfair and annoying to be stuck with someone elses workload. It sounds like your boss is a failure for not dealing with this and allowing this mismanagement to continue.

Now think happy thoughts.....beer and brats...or whatever gets you thru the day. (((hugs)))

[LynnW]

Tee, glad I could make you laugh. Just returning the favor. Your posts always bring a smile to my face.

[Meetz1064]

You COULD think of HER as the BRAT on the grill.................AHEM.........oh, did I really say that out loud?????????

skipping out of town...........

[TeeTees]

Here's another bright nugget for you TT,

YOU don't have to go home to HER! If you have to be with her for 8 hrs a day, poor hubby has her the rest of the time.

It's unfair and annoying to be stuck with someone elses workload. It sounds like your boss is a failure for not dealing with this and allowing this mismanagement to continue.

Now think happy thoughts.....beer and brats...or whatever gets you thru the day. (((hugs)))

Yeah, but guess what ?.....he's deaf !

(no offence to the deaf community, it's just a fact)

[hawke86]

Hi TeeTees
I hope you start to feel better soon.

[TeeTees]

Hi TeeTees
I hope you start to feel better soon.

Thanks hawke. It's kinda like I just feel as though I need a bit of 'me' time lately, as I tend to be spending alot of time at the moment not being able to focus on my own life. What with that, and a whole load of seizure's last week, I think exhaustion could be a good word to describe matters at the moment.

I hope your doing well too hawke

[hawke86]

Sorry to hear about your seizures TeeTees. I know what it's like when your seizures and depression try to take over you life. Just keep your chin up high and focus on other things. That's what my family tells me. Take care of yourself.

[BuckeyeFan]

Hey Tees, sorry I am a couple of days late on this response buddy.

Your analagy of riding the wave is just what you have to do. No, it is not easy. I try to ride the wave and wipe out all the time at work and at home. Ya just need to tread water for awhile and climb back on that surfboard.

Enjoy the heck out of the good times and that will help get you through the down times. Co-workers like that can drive you NUTZ real quick if you let them. Some of them do it for absolutely no reason other than to be pains in the backside. I have been through plenty of them through the years.

The last time I saw my neurologist, he brought depression up out of the blue. He said he has seen a change in me over the last few years and he wants to make sure I am doing OK mentally. I think he pegged it pretty good. This depression thing is a tough battle. It hits you in strange ways and causes all kinds of physical problems.

Keep laughing friend! That will help you stay on the top of the Wave. Your posts sure help me.

[hawke86]

Sounds like some good advice Buckeye Fan.

[tinasmom]

Whenever my boss really ticks me off, I go to the cafeteria and get a cup of coffee. Usually by the time I get back, he has realized that he upset me and apologizes. In his world, there are no mistakes. The other day, a coworker corrected him in front of his boss and he was not very happy. The good thing is that after 8 hours, I'm totally free of him until the next morning. I try to keep a smile on my face, it helps me to not get upset so easily.

[hawke86]

I haven't smiled or laughed since was a kid. I think I forgot how to smile or laugh. It's been to long,