Life.

[hawke86]

Has anyone ever felt so far down. You like giving up on everything. Anyone ever have these thoughts? Lately that's how I have been feeling. I get that way every now and then. Not as bad like it was in the past. I'm just wondering if anyone ever felt this way. I do try to keep busy to help keep these thoughts off my mind.

[Georgiagirl88]

Hi Hawke,

I am sorry you are feeling pretty low right now. I think everyone has times when they feel down or sad for a bit. We can't give up though. Life always turns around. Have you ever spoken to your Dr. about how you feel? Maybe it could be a med you are taking that is making you feel down or on the other hand..maybe there is something that could help you feel better. I would speak to your Dr. and be honest how you feel. I think it is great you can talk to us also. We are here for you!!! Keep opening up. And go talk to your Doc. It will help!! Try to stay positive too. I know you will feel better with help! : )) Is there anything in particular bothering you? Or just in general feeling crappy and down?

Michelle )))))

[RobinN]

I just keep putting one foot in front of the other. After a bit, it doesn't seem, or feel, quite so bad.

Hope you find something to cheer yourself up Hawke. Maybe a good movie?

[hawke86]

One of the things about life is I have P.T.S.D. I don't know if any of you people have it. Of all the dissabilties I have I'm lucky to be alive.

[RobinN]

Are you a veteran, Hawke?

[hawke86]

Why do you people want to help me or you people think you can? Why are you so concerned?

[Georgiagirl88]

Hey Hawke,

I would want others to care about me. I just love people and if I can help someone in even a small way I would. PTSD can be very hard. My sister had it for a while, but she is doing better now. Her son almost died and it really affected her. Whatever happened..I am glad you're here too! The nice thing about this site is..we don't judge each other..or at least try not to. We all try to support each other. I think everyone in this world has a purpose and a plan for our lives. We may not know what it is right now..but someday we will. Maybe you are here to help someone else with something similar to what you are feeling?? Who knows! My Mom recently died and it was really nice to hear from everyone with thoughts and prayers and just concern. So let us be here for you too if you want to.

Michelle : )

[hawke86]

I still don't get it. Why do people want to help me? I'm use to helping people, I'm not use to people wanting to help me. It kind of feels strange to me. People wanting to help me. It's just strange to me.

[Georgiagirl88]

Hey Hawke,
See I am the opposite..sometimes I wish people would offer to help me more. I am always the giver or the helper. Like for instance..I cannot drive right now(at least 6 mo.) which really stinks. I would love more offers to get out or offers of a ride. I would do that for someone. Sometimes it is hard to accept help too. Maybe it is a control thing. Like for me..I am not about to beg for a ride..I just feel weird or like a loser. I am used to being in control and independant and out and about. This is hard to deal with at times. But, it can always be way worse. So if ever you need an ear..you've got one here! We all have our issues..God only knows! I was told for yrs. I had panic /anxiety issues. Well..it was seizures. But at this point I do have some anxiety! Sort of funny in a way! I also have trouble taking meds because of a really bad experience after the birth with our first child. So I am really scared to take meds and have a super hard time with it. I have gotten better..out of necessity. Anyways...like I said..we all have something. : ) Some issues are worse than others I am sure..I am not trying to compare your PTSD by any means. Anyways, feel free to talk if ya want!

Michelle

[natalie]

I think many of us want to help because we are kind of in this together...on the epilepsy side anyway!

You can help us and we can help you...well...at least we can all try to help each other as much as we can. I think that is why some of us come here. That is why I have sought you all out this week. I need some help right now and that is why...for now, I may be taker more than a giver because I need some help getting through the days...

I am having a very difficult time because I feel like I am failing as a mother right now. I want to do more for them, but I feel that they are having to mother me instead of me mothering them...anyway...Hawke...you and I may both be feeling really down right now...we could probably help each other...

We just need to laugh or something...I find laughing about something usually makes things so much better! ;D

I think that is why we are all here Hawke...to try to help each other...I don't know if we can. I don't know that any of us are pretending to say that we can help you, we are just hoping that we can help you. We want to try to help you because we care about you. And although most of us do not have the P.T.S.D., we do have epilepsy or are somehow affected by epilepsy, so we can help you in that aspect. If you talk to us about the PTSD difficulties, I think most of us will be willing to listen to you concerning that as well...

I know life can be really hard at times, but you have to just keep getting up every morning and trying because somewhere out there someone is counting on you to be in this world whether you even realize it or not.

[tinasmom]

Hawke -

People here care about others and I am sure that is why you are here. I understand how you feel about being the one helping. I've always been the person that gives and it is hard for me when people see my need and just give. Last Christmas, a friend of mine put our names in for care packages from grand mal and I felt that there were others that needed this more than me.

I also understand feeling low, around Christmas this year I was so down that I thought I was losing my mind and nobody cared. I sought out counseling but the counselor was worthless. I finally exploded on my entire family and then felt so bad because they didn't deserve that.

You will learn to accept help from others, because you will know in your heart that their caring is genuine.

[hawke86]

I know what you mean by counseling is worthless. I tried it and it didn't do any good. It was worhless and a waste of time.

[tinasmom]

I do have a good counselor that was booked so I just saw the only one available. There are good counselors, you just have to connect with the right one, just like doctors.

[RobinN]

Hawke,
sometimes people give, because it feels good.
Occasionally we have to get out of just thinking about ourselves.

[Bernard]

Helping people for the sake of doing so has its own rewards. Everyone who chooses to participate here is a blessing to those who come later searching for understanding or answers.

Of course, friendly advice only helps those who are willing to listen.

[stilldancing_98]

What's going on Hawke? I am used to taking care of others and not used to others taking care of me either except for my family. And I have some very good friends with ptsd. So how come you are so down right now. I just had a Grand Mal Yesterday in front of my son who has epilepsy. So I am feeling really depressed today.

[hawke86]

Hey People,
I'm doing about the same,not much has changed. I am trying to keep busy. How are you people doing today? I hope you guys are having a good weekend so far. It's sunny and hot here today. We didn't get much rain today. It only rained about a hour. Enough to make it humid. Maybe the weather will be better tommorow. How has everyones week been? Anybody from Texas and where?

[natalie]

I am from Oklahoma and it is starting to get pretty hot here too already. It didn't rain here, but it didn't feel humid yet, either!

I hope your day was good....my day was pretty good. I tried to start a new job as a cleaning person at a local office, but it didn't go to well. I kept having partial seizures while I was cleaning. My boss is a friend...so they are paying me a flat rate rather than by the hour as we all knew it would be slow going..hahaha!

So...it was a good day in the aspect that I got out of bed for the second time in a week! That is good...but it was rough for the fact that reality likes to hit me in the face and remind me that I do in fact have epilepsy! I tend to like to deny that sometimes...LOL! I don't need the job for the money, I guess....I just need something so I can get a break from my house...so I will go back and try again tomorrow

How about you Hawke?? What did you do today? When you got out of bed...what did you actually do?

[brain]

I know what you mean by counseling is worthless. I tried it and it didn't do any good. It was worhless and a waste of time.

I just want to chime in because that quote you have
made is a very common phrase people have stated
repetitiously to me when I was in the ministries and
in pastoral care.

NOTE:
This isn't geared or aimed at you, but rather to all
who comes across reading this, I have implied this to
many individuals and couples throughout the years
and it still holds the truth and I will state it again:

• There are good counselors/psychologists/psychiatrists just as there are bad ones.
• For anything to work: the application in order to be functional must be desired and motivated by the individual wanting to seek a change, a progress, a goal met, et cetera.
• Nothing is accomplished overnight, everything is done at one step at a time. For when one attempts to achieve everything at once, they become overwhelmed; become discouraged, then gives up and quits.
• Patience is the key, we all will slip from time to time. It's not so much as how you 'slipped' but rather how quickly you got up and back on your feet and moved forward is what counts.
• Learning to leave the past in the past (the past is history, is done with, cannot be undone - let it go). Learning to live for today, and setting goals for tomorrow (the future).
• Breaking the cycle of whatever is holding you down - one must realize that every one of us is unique, we must focus on ourselves and not compare ourselves with John Q Public or Jane Doe. Some progress quickly, some progress slowly. Everyone has their own unique pace. Don't try to be like someone else, be yourself and set your own pace. This is very important, or otherwise, it will result in failure and you will not accomplish much.
• If you ever feel like you are not progressing at any point, then discuss this with your counselor/psychologist/psychiatrist; and a review of everything would be considered and possibility a new plan developed, revamped, revised, or whatever it might be best suited and deemed for you as an individual.
• Sometimes "Group Support" is suggested at some point, to allow variables and open discussion; and this is considered only if its deemed best for you. Group Support is not always profitable for everyone however.

[stilldancing_98]

I'm tired but I'm here and making it. Got some things accomplished and feeling good. We finally had some sun out here in Seattle. 95 degrees where I live today. Aaaagh! To hot for me. Im thinking about you Hawke. I am feeling better. Bless you all.