Hey Everyone.
I am Ellen. I am 20 years old and I need some help with whatever is wrong with me.
Starting my Senior year of high school, I began to notice I was experiencing debilitating Deja Vu attacks. I would suddenly feel Deja Vu just like I always had in my life. But then I would feel outside of this reality--almost similar to a tunnel experience. I would smell smoke--not like a cigarette or fire but a smokey smell. My head would feel fried and then I would get very nauseous, sometimes even puke.
Over time, they became much more frequent. 2 years later I still experience them although not as frequent as I did in high school.
I began complaining and my parents took me to the doctor. I recevied an MRI and an EEG but nothing appeard to be wrong. The "attacks" continued.
I have done some research on my own. There has been many comments on similar experiences with people with epilepsy (which is why I registered here), dissociative identity disorder, depersonalization, derealization, and others. I have never been diagnosed but many people reccommend psychological help. But being a full-time student at a top University who works part-time and does not have a car, it is hard to continue these visits.
The "attacks" are so scary and really affect my life. I hate them and they are painful. I usually feel terribly sleepy afterwards and completely "out-of-it."
I have often thought they were panic attacks.
When I was young, I was harrassed by a man who would call and ask me to touch my "private areas" or shave.
When I was 16, my first boyfriend raped me and did so several times years afterwards.
I had a very destructive behavior during my teenage years and I always though drug use contributed to the "attacks." But when I stopped smoking marijuana, it got much, much, much worse.
All of the Deju Vu experiences make me think they came from prior dreams. I can almost match the Deja Vu to the dream perfectly but that is of no help.
I am doing my best to track when they occur but I have not been doing it long enough to really know. It seems they come around my period, before and after.
If anyone understands what I am going through or has any advice, please, please, please help me.
It is scary to be alone in this and I would love one day to not have to worry.
Thanks guys
I am Ellen. I am 20 years old and I need some help with whatever is wrong with me.
Starting my Senior year of high school, I began to notice I was experiencing debilitating Deja Vu attacks. I would suddenly feel Deja Vu just like I always had in my life. But then I would feel outside of this reality--almost similar to a tunnel experience. I would smell smoke--not like a cigarette or fire but a smokey smell. My head would feel fried and then I would get very nauseous, sometimes even puke.
Over time, they became much more frequent. 2 years later I still experience them although not as frequent as I did in high school.
I began complaining and my parents took me to the doctor. I recevied an MRI and an EEG but nothing appeard to be wrong. The "attacks" continued.
I have done some research on my own. There has been many comments on similar experiences with people with epilepsy (which is why I registered here), dissociative identity disorder, depersonalization, derealization, and others. I have never been diagnosed but many people reccommend psychological help. But being a full-time student at a top University who works part-time and does not have a car, it is hard to continue these visits.
The "attacks" are so scary and really affect my life. I hate them and they are painful. I usually feel terribly sleepy afterwards and completely "out-of-it."
I have often thought they were panic attacks.
When I was young, I was harrassed by a man who would call and ask me to touch my "private areas" or shave.
When I was 16, my first boyfriend raped me and did so several times years afterwards.
I had a very destructive behavior during my teenage years and I always though drug use contributed to the "attacks." But when I stopped smoking marijuana, it got much, much, much worse.
All of the Deju Vu experiences make me think they came from prior dreams. I can almost match the Deja Vu to the dream perfectly but that is of no help.
I am doing my best to track when they occur but I have not been doing it long enough to really know. It seems they come around my period, before and after.
If anyone understands what I am going through or has any advice, please, please, please help me.
It is scary to be alone in this and I would love one day to not have to worry.
Thanks guys
