Hello ppls i've been reading threads from this forum for along time and decided today that i'll introduce myself. I live in perth, australia and am turning 27 i found out that i had epilepsy when i was 24 and i despite all the help from my doctors i still have seizures. i take 2200mg of eplium and 100mg of lamictal a day. i feel so alone and that noone understands i don't know anyone else with epilepsy. sometimes i get so tired of being scared all the time i mean i'm afraid to go out and i know i shouldn't try to handle it on my own but there is noone around that understands my dad used to yell at me everytime i had a seizure and blamed me for not taking my meds i dun blame him because he dosen't know about it and also he has to work alot i can't talk to my brothers because everytime i tried to they just get arkward and try to change the subject i had a girlfriend before and i thought she understood but she broke up with me because of my bad memory, depression and all the other things that come with it my friends are always busy but i don't know if they advoid me because of my epilepsy or not. it would be nice if they just asked me if i wanted to go out with them once in awhile of to even just say hello on msn i mean is it too much to ask? i was also wondering if anyone here suffered from hallucinations coz it seems i've been seeing things lately and i dunno y. i try to put on a smile and act like everything is okie but sometimes i get so upset and i'm so tired of fighting a loseing battle that i just want to sleep forever and the only reason y i haven't done it yet is because i have a little half brother and half sister that still need their big brother. i've recently started studying again i've quit twice before i find it so hard to concentrate and to remenber things that sometimes i don't know why i even bother. i'm also afraid that if i get to dependant on someone for support that they'd just leave me like my ex-girlfriend. I'm sorry this post is all over the place i'm just writing things as they come to mind i thought it might help if i found some ppl who have been through the same thing and understand what i'm goin through.
reguards Stephen
reguards Stephen