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Hi all....I've been avoiding this for a long time. When I first had symptoms I didn't know what the heck was going on; I just thought I was having flashbacks and really thought I was going crazy. I had weird deja vu feelings that didn't even make sense, and then when I smelled this new detergent at the market it happened again. And then with certain music. I began Googling "deja vu" and found that I was perhaps seizing, so after a call to the neurologist and an EEG, turns out I was correct. That was in 2005; since then I have only had 4 episodes, but my worry is that they can change from simple partial to the more severe kind. I don't want to go on medication, as I suffered from post partum severely after the birth of my child and have read so many side effects are suicidal tendencies, and I know I'd be at risk.
The total panic of a seizure is overwhelming to me. When I am in one I think I need to kill myself because I can't deal with it. Then when I come out of it I don't think like that. My emotions are just so strong at that time, and the hallucinations are all nonsensical but I know what song I am going to hear and what people I am going to see. Weird, huh?
Also, for the last 2 episodes (July and yesterday/today) I have had cluster ones; yesterday I had 5 all together and today I had 1 this morning.
I take Ativan low dosage to see if it stops and usually it will. I read where sometimes these will lowere the chances of getting another one.
I don't want to keep rambling, but my final question refers to driving. How strict are the docs? I am a professor and drive about 30 minutes to my school. I live in a rural area and have no other way to get there. I love my job and can't bear to think of leaving it. Any suggestions here?
I appreciate any and all insight or help. I'm sort of at my wit's end and am living in fear of another seizure . Thank you.
The total panic of a seizure is overwhelming to me. When I am in one I think I need to kill myself because I can't deal with it. Then when I come out of it I don't think like that. My emotions are just so strong at that time, and the hallucinations are all nonsensical but I know what song I am going to hear and what people I am going to see. Weird, huh?
Also, for the last 2 episodes (July and yesterday/today) I have had cluster ones; yesterday I had 5 all together and today I had 1 this morning.
I take Ativan low dosage to see if it stops and usually it will. I read where sometimes these will lowere the chances of getting another one.
I don't want to keep rambling, but my final question refers to driving. How strict are the docs? I am a professor and drive about 30 minutes to my school. I live in a rural area and have no other way to get there. I love my job and can't bear to think of leaving it. Any suggestions here?
I appreciate any and all insight or help. I'm sort of at my wit's end and am living in fear of another seizure . Thank you.
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