Hello,
I have had seizures since I was 21 that was 38 yrs ago. It's been within the past year that my sojourn to seizure free has finally come to pass.
I was 35 when I lost my kids, was disowned by my family, was having uncontrolable tonic clonic seizures and was suicide prone. My maternal family was very sick. I was adopted by my grandparents and raised without love. It's taken many years to finally let them go and forgive them, but I did with divine help.
There was no explainable reason for the seizures but inside I knew this was going to be a hard journey. It was body, mind and spirit. Just taking care of one and leaving the others hanging only made them worse. My doctor could only find one medication that partially worked. We tried everything. I needed a co-medication. But I got adverse effects from them all. It was 2 years ago when he looked at me with sorrow and said they were unexplainable.
Some have called my healing unbelievable. I finally found a diet that works high fat/protein, sugar/gluton free and cbd.
But there was more. There was mind and spirit that needed work. Intense prayer/meditation, finding a faith community, while facing and accepting the psychological effect of epilepsy. I read them and my eyes were opened, I wasn't alone, it wasn't just physical. I didn't have to feel ashamed of being me seizures and all.
I found out that people with epilepsy can be fearful of close relationships, anger/rage, distrust, depressed, rejected, suicidal, etc. But we can also be very intuitive, spiritual, religious, and courageous. My defects and assets were right in front of me. I started to accept them and accept myself. Love my whole being.
I started praying and meditating more. Asking for the virtues of divine love, patience, humility, joy, hope, trust, courage, while being honest with myself and others. Seeing clearly and forgiving myself and others. When I find myself getting hyped up about events, or uncontrolable issues I breathe and pray. Sometimes I screw up but not for long. I'm not afraid. That's a lot for me. I have a smile on my face.
Some have called me a mystic. Nah, I'm just a person who volunteers for others less fortunate and loves them. I just feel the spirit in my heart and not my mind. My beliefs are my own. I am thankful.
Peace,
Leslie
I have had seizures since I was 21 that was 38 yrs ago. It's been within the past year that my sojourn to seizure free has finally come to pass.
I was 35 when I lost my kids, was disowned by my family, was having uncontrolable tonic clonic seizures and was suicide prone. My maternal family was very sick. I was adopted by my grandparents and raised without love. It's taken many years to finally let them go and forgive them, but I did with divine help.
There was no explainable reason for the seizures but inside I knew this was going to be a hard journey. It was body, mind and spirit. Just taking care of one and leaving the others hanging only made them worse. My doctor could only find one medication that partially worked. We tried everything. I needed a co-medication. But I got adverse effects from them all. It was 2 years ago when he looked at me with sorrow and said they were unexplainable.
Some have called my healing unbelievable. I finally found a diet that works high fat/protein, sugar/gluton free and cbd.
But there was more. There was mind and spirit that needed work. Intense prayer/meditation, finding a faith community, while facing and accepting the psychological effect of epilepsy. I read them and my eyes were opened, I wasn't alone, it wasn't just physical. I didn't have to feel ashamed of being me seizures and all.
I found out that people with epilepsy can be fearful of close relationships, anger/rage, distrust, depressed, rejected, suicidal, etc. But we can also be very intuitive, spiritual, religious, and courageous. My defects and assets were right in front of me. I started to accept them and accept myself. Love my whole being.
I started praying and meditating more. Asking for the virtues of divine love, patience, humility, joy, hope, trust, courage, while being honest with myself and others. Seeing clearly and forgiving myself and others. When I find myself getting hyped up about events, or uncontrolable issues I breathe and pray. Sometimes I screw up but not for long. I'm not afraid. That's a lot for me. I have a smile on my face.
Some have called me a mystic. Nah, I'm just a person who volunteers for others less fortunate and loves them. I just feel the spirit in my heart and not my mind. My beliefs are my own. I am thankful.
Peace,
Leslie