Ok, the only reason I posted this in this forum is because I think the people in this forum are much more supportive than others. And I hope you can help me with this situation.
Ok, my best friend (now EX) Angelina started treating me like crap last July. I didn't know why. We tried to work things out and she said she'd be nicer. But she didn't. She didn't accept any of my lunch offers, wouldn't call, wouldn't talk to me (and I was her freaking roommate!)
So, I told her last November I was moving out (1. I wanted to be with my boyfriend and 2. I couldn't stand her anymore!) Ofcourse, I didn't tell her number 2. She said she was fine with it. And she was cool....for about a week.
Then, she comes in the house talking crap to me how I shouldn't get my deposit back for the apartment because I chickened out on my half of the lease, etc etc.
So, after that, I lost it. I didn't confront her, but I gave her the HUGE cold shoulder (the one she'd been giving me for months.) And it hasn't changed since.
I moved out, I never speak to her, she blocked me from her facebook, we won't even look at each other if we pass in the hallway.
Problem is... I have so much hate for this woman. She has put me through so much grief that I never deserved. I deserve such a better friend than her. I've needed to go to confession for the HORRIBLE things that I've wished upon her. It consumes me. I've never had this much hate for someone. So.....why do I keep caring what's going on in her life? She just got engaged and found out she's pregnant (surprise, btw.) I can't imagine her being happy with this. Her wedding planning went from 1.5 years down to 1 month! For some reason, I see this as an opportunity to start things over between us.
But please understand, this woman is unforgiving. She's completely neurotic. I don't know why I want to be friends with her again...esp. after the way she just though our friendship away.
Can anyone explain to me how I can have peace with MYSELF?
Ok, my best friend (now EX) Angelina started treating me like crap last July. I didn't know why. We tried to work things out and she said she'd be nicer. But she didn't. She didn't accept any of my lunch offers, wouldn't call, wouldn't talk to me (and I was her freaking roommate!)
So, I told her last November I was moving out (1. I wanted to be with my boyfriend and 2. I couldn't stand her anymore!) Ofcourse, I didn't tell her number 2. She said she was fine with it. And she was cool....for about a week.
Then, she comes in the house talking crap to me how I shouldn't get my deposit back for the apartment because I chickened out on my half of the lease, etc etc.
So, after that, I lost it. I didn't confront her, but I gave her the HUGE cold shoulder (the one she'd been giving me for months.) And it hasn't changed since.
I moved out, I never speak to her, she blocked me from her facebook, we won't even look at each other if we pass in the hallway.
Problem is... I have so much hate for this woman. She has put me through so much grief that I never deserved. I deserve such a better friend than her. I've needed to go to confession for the HORRIBLE things that I've wished upon her. It consumes me. I've never had this much hate for someone. So.....why do I keep caring what's going on in her life? She just got engaged and found out she's pregnant (surprise, btw.) I can't imagine her being happy with this. Her wedding planning went from 1.5 years down to 1 month! For some reason, I see this as an opportunity to start things over between us.
But please understand, this woman is unforgiving. She's completely neurotic. I don't know why I want to be friends with her again...esp. after the way she just though our friendship away.
Can anyone explain to me how I can have peace with MYSELF?