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I had a few days of really bad frequent seizures, thanks to my EEG last week. (i'd blame the tech but they didn't start until after right after I left the office)
There was a day where I was having myoclonics almost constantly. Had 2 CPs that were worse than anything i've had since getting on meds
The day after that I was trying to sleep at a friends house when I suddenly got really angry. (I had had a CP earlier in the day) I was upset and wanted to go for a walk at 1 am. My friend who knew I'd been having a lot of seizures wouldn't let me go alone. Otherwise i'd would have taken a long steep icy uphill walk to go the grocery store and get a candy bar. I just wanted a candy bar. The type didn't matter to me. If I had felt like talking I would have told her I was mad at her because I knew she wouldn't let me go out and get something that I'm not allowed to eat just because I was having alot of seizures.
Later, I don't remember what made me angry but I was so angry I got up instead of trying to fall asleep. I wanted to go outside, but knew it wasn't a good idea to go out in the winter time half dressed and in bare feet. I believe my next plan was to go sit indianstyle in the bathtub - because I'd have more privacy in the bathtub. It made sense at the time. My friend saw and asked "where are you going?" With the full unbridled rage that only comes after a CP, I screamed "I don't know!," walked to the door, cried for a bit, then tried to go into the bathroom to blow my nose. I walked smack into the edge of the door, so I cursed the door, and pounded on it for a bit. Blew my nose and a few minutes later I was calm. I remember answering her questions alot during the night, but I don't remember her actually asking anything. Later, she said she was just talking to me to see if it would help, not asking questions
I then slept for about 12 hours straight, was groggy and confused, and used a lot of malapropisms the next day. Everything points to seizure behavior, except that I can remember my actions. I've never remembered these things before. I have memories, but they are the wrong ones. Typically it would be her saying this happened, and my saying that I was arguing politics with a giant dragon, or something like that
There was a day where I was having myoclonics almost constantly. Had 2 CPs that were worse than anything i've had since getting on meds
The day after that I was trying to sleep at a friends house when I suddenly got really angry. (I had had a CP earlier in the day) I was upset and wanted to go for a walk at 1 am. My friend who knew I'd been having a lot of seizures wouldn't let me go alone. Otherwise i'd would have taken a long steep icy uphill walk to go the grocery store and get a candy bar. I just wanted a candy bar. The type didn't matter to me. If I had felt like talking I would have told her I was mad at her because I knew she wouldn't let me go out and get something that I'm not allowed to eat just because I was having alot of seizures.
Later, I don't remember what made me angry but I was so angry I got up instead of trying to fall asleep. I wanted to go outside, but knew it wasn't a good idea to go out in the winter time half dressed and in bare feet. I believe my next plan was to go sit indianstyle in the bathtub - because I'd have more privacy in the bathtub. It made sense at the time. My friend saw and asked "where are you going?" With the full unbridled rage that only comes after a CP, I screamed "I don't know!," walked to the door, cried for a bit, then tried to go into the bathroom to blow my nose. I walked smack into the edge of the door, so I cursed the door, and pounded on it for a bit. Blew my nose and a few minutes later I was calm. I remember answering her questions alot during the night, but I don't remember her actually asking anything. Later, she said she was just talking to me to see if it would help, not asking questions
I then slept for about 12 hours straight, was groggy and confused, and used a lot of malapropisms the next day. Everything points to seizure behavior, except that I can remember my actions. I've never remembered these things before. I have memories, but they are the wrong ones. Typically it would be her saying this happened, and my saying that I was arguing politics with a giant dragon, or something like that