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Yay!
Like so many others have probably said I am so glad to have found this forum!
Although none of my symptoms and am now learning episodes have severly affected my life it is so good to finally have some answers, a word for this, a description and or something that can be articulated by others!
I have so much to learn and feel a little overwhelmed at the moment.
I do have a question though. These symptoms/episodes have diminished over the years. I do not have them very often. What does this mean for me?
Can epilepsy resolve itself? Geez I feel so ignorant.
I am not 100% sure I have temporal lobe epilepsy as I am at the beginning of all this. But because I take stimulants (Adderall) I need to at least investigate the possibility.
Below is a brief footnote version of my symptoms.
Ahh! again..so glad I found this forum.
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I am just putting the pieces together in the last 6 months. I did not think to ever research these kinds of things until I started taking Adderall and on a hunch decided to run a search on my sleep and sensory problems. This has now lead me here.
I have suffered (not really suffered as endured, or dealt with) such things as sleep paralysis and restless leg syndrome since I was a child. I have been always able to lucid dream.
In concert with that I have on and off experienced (although diminished as an adult) times where I would have two specific kinds of episodes happen.
1. Always happening around bed time. Not sure because of stress or whatnot but as I would lay down for bed I would hear my own inner monologue litterally screaming at me. Not talking to me, but basically my thoughts being amplified to such heights I would get to the point of crying. As this was happening I would go into a trance like state (zoning out) although still aware. My bedroom walls would feel as if they were moving in towards me and then out and expanding. I would feel "tiny" haha that's the only way to describe it. As if I were sinking into my bed. I would not be able to sleep.
2. This has happened all my life and still happens to this day, although infrequently. I will be sitting or in the bath or listening to conversation or at the computer, ect. Out of no where I will zone out. A buzzing sound will start to occur in my ears. Sounds, people talking sound far away and a little delayed or slow. I will not be able to really function while this is happening, just kind of sit there. I am fully aware however and to the average person I think I look like I am not paying attn or staring at them but not listening. suddenly, like a snap of the fingers it just stops and time/sounds speed right back to normal and the episode is over. This whole thing usually last anywhere for 20 seconds to a 1minute.
* I have a bad memory only with recalling what time/date things happened. Not the memory itself, just the time. It takes alot of effort to recount when
Like so many others have probably said I am so glad to have found this forum!
Although none of my symptoms and am now learning episodes have severly affected my life it is so good to finally have some answers, a word for this, a description and or something that can be articulated by others!
I have so much to learn and feel a little overwhelmed at the moment.
I do have a question though. These symptoms/episodes have diminished over the years. I do not have them very often. What does this mean for me?
Can epilepsy resolve itself? Geez I feel so ignorant.
I am not 100% sure I have temporal lobe epilepsy as I am at the beginning of all this. But because I take stimulants (Adderall) I need to at least investigate the possibility.
Below is a brief footnote version of my symptoms.
Ahh! again..so glad I found this forum.
*********
I am just putting the pieces together in the last 6 months. I did not think to ever research these kinds of things until I started taking Adderall and on a hunch decided to run a search on my sleep and sensory problems. This has now lead me here.
I have suffered (not really suffered as endured, or dealt with) such things as sleep paralysis and restless leg syndrome since I was a child. I have been always able to lucid dream.
In concert with that I have on and off experienced (although diminished as an adult) times where I would have two specific kinds of episodes happen.
1. Always happening around bed time. Not sure because of stress or whatnot but as I would lay down for bed I would hear my own inner monologue litterally screaming at me. Not talking to me, but basically my thoughts being amplified to such heights I would get to the point of crying. As this was happening I would go into a trance like state (zoning out) although still aware. My bedroom walls would feel as if they were moving in towards me and then out and expanding. I would feel "tiny" haha that's the only way to describe it. As if I were sinking into my bed. I would not be able to sleep.
2. This has happened all my life and still happens to this day, although infrequently. I will be sitting or in the bath or listening to conversation or at the computer, ect. Out of no where I will zone out. A buzzing sound will start to occur in my ears. Sounds, people talking sound far away and a little delayed or slow. I will not be able to really function while this is happening, just kind of sit there. I am fully aware however and to the average person I think I look like I am not paying attn or staring at them but not listening. suddenly, like a snap of the fingers it just stops and time/sounds speed right back to normal and the episode is over. This whole thing usually last anywhere for 20 seconds to a 1minute.
* I have a bad memory only with recalling what time/date things happened. Not the memory itself, just the time. It takes alot of effort to recount when
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