I only wonder because I do live alone, and there has been times I've woken up tired sore and occasionally wet(which for years I thought was only alcohol related, I do get checked for diabetes, never ruled out sleep apnea, I'm gonna talk to the docs about that, been embarrassed to talk to the docs about it, though I know that's kinda silly). Ive always been an active sleeper, meaning I talk ALOT in my sleep.
Anyways I'm just concerned about having a seizure in my sleep because, well no ones there to tell me Im not, and I'm afraid it could make things worse? Like kindling or possibly not stopping or triggering my asthma?
Im honestly paranoid this week since the simple partial on the plane, I mean it was short and quick but damn, it scared me, besides occasional myoclonus I've been good for the most part I think? I'm kinda relieved the people sitting right next to me on the plane didn't notice but at the same time that was kinda scary too, I could feel my face spasming and saw the muscles in my left wrist go friggin nuts, couldnt control it, and it felt for a sec like I was gonna go full T/C, the second the light triggered it I felt the exact same stomach sinking "oh crap oh crap" feeling, I had during the first T/C.
I'm grateful I didn't go T/C but now I'm obsessed and analyzing everything, and waiting on a phone call or two week to see the neurologist to see if I should still be allowed to drive. I get a little embarrassed to post here so much this week but Im still getting use to this, it's finally really settling in that I have Epilepsy, it was much easier to handle when I seemed to have everything mostly under control, I thought maybe id avoid any more major seizures and just deal with the annoyance of occaisonal myoclonus or feeling possible auras, I guess after the last EEG proving the last doctor was an ass, and the simple partial on the plane it just seems more of a threat?
I've worried for a few years now that my career was at threat because it's highly stressful, I drive a long commute, get little sleep, you know all the things to avoid, I've tried to not think about it to much but now I'm forced to Really deal with it.