Damn! Four years! That sucks! So when you say you came to in a ditch, are you saying you were driving and did so, or just walking along and fell into it?
11 days shy of five years actually. devastating to say the least. it's weird even looking back at that time b/c i truly had no idea what was really wrong with me. it was me driving; i work on the road weekly and was out and about doing my thing on a wednesday morn. mid-november, beautiful and sunny, and i wasn't paying a ton of attention to the one i'd had while getting dressed earlier - as i didn't know it was seizures (misdiagnosed years prior with ptsd). thought i had a ptsd attack, got it over with and hit the road (drove to a dif city an hour away).
about 1.5 hours after getting there, was driving up a hill and had another attack, la dee da. last thing i remember was cresting the top of the hill (lucky to be alive really as logging trucks come down about 3 per minute at 120km/hr, woulda been head on).
you and i get it on the luck thing. i hit no one (tho my car weaved into oncoming around a big corner in front of an elementary school), then rolled into a ditch on opposite side. waking up surrounded by alot of cops, a firetruck and guy bent beside me asking my birthdate?... hell x1 million.
found out after that it started with a simple partial, which changed everything for me. never did have ptsd.
since starting to have g.m.'s in 2003 i've lost my license 7 times b/c of a grand mal, and now after surg am to be getting it back in a month (surg was 5 months ago today), and NEVER want to go through it again. unfortunately i don't have the luck of hitting the bottom of the barrel again. live out in the country, and being self-employed for 17 years i have to drive, at this point can hardly bring myself to rely on others one more day, gut wrenching. and my specialists/hospital are 8 hours away, even my local doc isn't close enough to walk to. no transit either. :banana: good times!
best of luck with your szs my dear, and putting up with the daily struggle.
nat.
