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Because of my schedule the last week and the fact that I have been having what I suppose could possibly be aura's for a few days now that have been increasing, it is becomming harder to 'hide' the fact that nothing is wrong at work right now. At first I was able to say I am just tired and it worked, but I'm starting to act different now, more confused, I ask people to repeat themselves a lot and I've been completely unfocused all day. There are a couple key people who know that I am waiting to basically be officially diagnosed with epilepsy so its not like no one knows. But it is getting harder and harder to avoid the questions as the day goes on. I am embarrassed about everything but I think overall I don't really mind people knowing. At least certain people. But, I can't get to the telling people part because the word epilepsy is really hard for me to say. I think I'm ok with having epilepsy, it sucks, but I have a family and I will do what I have to do. But I really don't want to be labeled as epileptic by people. Especially with the misunderstanding that comes with the word. Was/is that hard for people? Is it just the word and all the myths and misunderstandings that go along with it or is that I am just not ok with people knowing? I dunno, just sleep deprived thinking here...