Just feeling a bit down. My stepdad is in a care home with a trachy with no hope of ever leaving which is causing my mum to drink more than she usually does. She has had a couple of falls which worries me as she isn't in the best of health. And a fall (after a seizure) is how my stepdad ending up in first the hospital then the care home. Lost my dad when I was 17 so don't want to lose my mum too but worried I will. Got two law breakers in the family (very serious crimes), my mum and sister don't talk. Sometimes I jusg feel my family is falling apart.
Feeling very lonely in my flat on my own. Used to have a gerbil till last year, not the best for company but better than nothing. Taught him recall. Still missing him. Been missing my dad recently too even though he died in 1999. My girlfriend is going on holiday on Saturday so will be looking after her dog so will have some company at nights but will miss my gf loads. We were going to go to lackpool this Thursday just gone with a friend but her family said it's too busy there and stopped it (we are both in our 30's but she lives at home). Would have been nice. Not doing well with weightloss either, I am doing the old Weightwatchers plan but when I am feelibg stressed I often go over the daily points I have been assigned. If it wasn't for stupid epilepsy I would never have put the weightback on in the first place! I was 12 stone in 2010 which was fine for my height but then the epilepsy got worse (mostly controlled now though) and I couldn't even get out the bedroom without havibg a few simple partial seizures. So I ended up just getting food from the nearest shop which only sold crisps and chocolate foodwise. So then I put all the weight back on. By the time U did get epilepsy medication I had got addicted to junk food. Before that I ate it twice a week max but usually once. Anyway just fed up of it all. Need a holiday but nobody wants to or can go. Sorry for all this but just feeling a bit down
Feeling very lonely in my flat on my own. Used to have a gerbil till last year, not the best for company but better than nothing. Taught him recall. Still missing him. Been missing my dad recently too even though he died in 1999. My girlfriend is going on holiday on Saturday so will be looking after her dog so will have some company at nights but will miss my gf loads. We were going to go to lackpool this Thursday just gone with a friend but her family said it's too busy there and stopped it (we are both in our 30's but she lives at home). Would have been nice. Not doing well with weightloss either, I am doing the old Weightwatchers plan but when I am feelibg stressed I often go over the daily points I have been assigned. If it wasn't for stupid epilepsy I would never have put the weightback on in the first place! I was 12 stone in 2010 which was fine for my height but then the epilepsy got worse (mostly controlled now though) and I couldn't even get out the bedroom without havibg a few simple partial seizures. So I ended up just getting food from the nearest shop which only sold crisps and chocolate foodwise. So then I put all the weight back on. By the time U did get epilepsy medication I had got addicted to junk food. Before that I ate it twice a week max but usually once. Anyway just fed up of it all. Need a holiday but nobody wants to or can go. Sorry for all this but just feeling a bit down
