Some people may remember my stepdad was in a care home in Oldham. Unfortunately he died just before Christmas. What made it worse was that it was the care homes fault - they dropped him causing head injuries as they don't use a hoist (which is illegal not to) and then tried to cover it up by saying he took a step forward and fell - he couldn't walk!!
I was finding it hard to cope before he died but struggling more now. I'm finding it hard to sleep and when I do get to sleep keep waking up so I'm tired all the time. My brother wants to hire a camper van in May (my mum doesn't want to go she wants to be with friends) for a week and it's the only proper holiday I will get this year plus not had a holiday for 7 years. But I know my gf's family are going to ask me soon if I will look after the dog. I looked after him for the past three years when they went on holiday - even though last year my gf's sister's bf went with them even though they had only been together a year whereas we have been together six years (well over five at the time) now. My gf and her family are going away for 2 weeks so even if I do look after Buddy (gf's dog) and then go for a week with my brother, that will be three weeks we won't see each other for and right now I need a the support I can get. I'm really struggling with everything but it must be worse for my mum he was her husband so it's hard seeing her so upset all the time. I laugh and joke but I'm just putting on a brave face for show. Inside it's killing me. I'm not as strong as I act in front of other people but I don't want people to see .e break down. I don't know what to do.
I was finding it hard to cope before he died but struggling more now. I'm finding it hard to sleep and when I do get to sleep keep waking up so I'm tired all the time. My brother wants to hire a camper van in May (my mum doesn't want to go she wants to be with friends) for a week and it's the only proper holiday I will get this year plus not had a holiday for 7 years. But I know my gf's family are going to ask me soon if I will look after the dog. I looked after him for the past three years when they went on holiday - even though last year my gf's sister's bf went with them even though they had only been together a year whereas we have been together six years (well over five at the time) now. My gf and her family are going away for 2 weeks so even if I do look after Buddy (gf's dog) and then go for a week with my brother, that will be three weeks we won't see each other for and right now I need a the support I can get. I'm really struggling with everything but it must be worse for my mum he was her husband so it's hard seeing her so upset all the time. I laugh and joke but I'm just putting on a brave face for show. Inside it's killing me. I'm not as strong as I act in front of other people but I don't want people to see .e break down. I don't know what to do.