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In May of last year, my last week of college, I tried to commit suicide. As I've said before, it's not that I wanted to die, I just want to sleep for a while. Lots of things were happening at once and I just didn't want to exist for a month or two.
Now how does this relate back to epilepsy, well my neuro said that just having epilepsy alone gives a person a 30% chance of some sort of mood disorder. Being female (like I am), adds 20%. I talked to him for a good two hours, told him everything about my life and such. In the end he diagnosed me with major depression. I wasn't surprised. I had already noticed the cycles and symptoms after my episode in May. But something did surprise me.
For my whole life, I've been taking Depakote ER, which not only treats epilepsy, but is also a mood balancer. So my whole life I was treating the depression I never knew I had. Until I switched to Keppra. Keppra has it's own problems, but it doesn't do anything for moods. So when I switched to Keppra, the depression came out in full force.
May was my lowest point in my life, and I will never go back to that, but I still suffer heavily from the depression, and I'd like to ask the forum a few questions.
I'm not afraid to give any more details of my life if anyone needs it.
Now how does this relate back to epilepsy, well my neuro said that just having epilepsy alone gives a person a 30% chance of some sort of mood disorder. Being female (like I am), adds 20%. I talked to him for a good two hours, told him everything about my life and such. In the end he diagnosed me with major depression. I wasn't surprised. I had already noticed the cycles and symptoms after my episode in May. But something did surprise me.
For my whole life, I've been taking Depakote ER, which not only treats epilepsy, but is also a mood balancer. So my whole life I was treating the depression I never knew I had. Until I switched to Keppra. Keppra has it's own problems, but it doesn't do anything for moods. So when I switched to Keppra, the depression came out in full force.
May was my lowest point in my life, and I will never go back to that, but I still suffer heavily from the depression, and I'd like to ask the forum a few questions.
- What are the connections between Depression and Epilepsy?
- How many people on the forum have both Depression and Epilepsy (not running in family)?
- Should I get my neuro to formally diagnose me? (my parents don't really believe in depression)
- Should I switch back to Depakote, even after my neuro has told me to get off of meds?
- Do you have any advice?
I'm not afraid to give any more details of my life if anyone needs it.