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I have a recurring cyclic thought process involving a time I believe I may have been conversing during a seizure period, but I don't exactly recall. It established itself as a <memory> period, but substance and coherence is void, like remembering a hazy dream, and as the thought process recurs it is an incessant concern. Why, I don't know. But it feels like a violation, like having had a personal diary splayed online, on live tv, etc.
I try bringing it up with my counselor/psychiatrist but the topic doesn't go anywhere, primarily I guess because of my lack of clarity on the timeframe. But there is an incessant "wrong" I associate with the timeframe, an invasion, to the point it feels at times like I'm being monitored as well, which is strange considering this timeperiod was at a hospital in severe pain.
It may have originated in something as simple as the typical postictal EMS or hospital questions: "what's your name, do you know where you are..." but the overall feeling of invasion has been persistent since that time and I'm not sure what to do about it and it has been eating away at me.
Is this type of thing a common occurrence? Do you think it could be aura-related itself?
I try bringing it up with my counselor/psychiatrist but the topic doesn't go anywhere, primarily I guess because of my lack of clarity on the timeframe. But there is an incessant "wrong" I associate with the timeframe, an invasion, to the point it feels at times like I'm being monitored as well, which is strange considering this timeperiod was at a hospital in severe pain.
It may have originated in something as simple as the typical postictal EMS or hospital questions: "what's your name, do you know where you are..." but the overall feeling of invasion has been persistent since that time and I'm not sure what to do about it and it has been eating away at me.
Is this type of thing a common occurrence? Do you think it could be aura-related itself?