Today my family packed up my office. For the first time in 25 years I am unemployed. I am unbelievably sad and stressed out. My seizures are not exactly under control, and I hate the side effects of these meds. I have not seen my neurologist in 4 months, which I think seems odd since I have yet been stable on any one medication since October. It is an act of congress to get through his nurse, and getting an appt takes months. I am curious-the last time I had an appt he had told me that most people usually only have one type of seizure. I don't know how that can be true. Over my last several years of going to doctors and feeling awful, with now answers, finally getting a diagnosis, and researching, I am seeing that I have had maybe 3 or 4 kind. I know I fell out of a bar stool on to the concrete one night 3 time, before I decided that I should go lie down. The whole thing was so odd! I lost all control of myself, have no idea if I fell, and popped back up or what happened, why I the first thought I had was "wow that didn't even hurt!", and proceeded to do it 2 more times before having enough sense to go in and lie down! It hurt the next day!!!! My eyes flutter and I nod out. The dr told me I was having complex partials when I drove for 25 minutes with no memory. Then there are the ones where I would try to watch a movie, and the next thing I would remember would be the credit rolling, and I have no idea what had happened. All the times I ended up outside in the middle of the night, and have no idea how I got there. Are these all seizures? or is something else going on?