Janellie8
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Hello my dear friends.
I just had this HUGE seizure- gosh I hate that word, seizure. And I feel like crapp. I thought I was done asking myself this question years ago, "why me?" Well, I don't know why okay!! I have so much anger towards my epilepsy. I feel like it's ruining my life. I thought I was done with those questions, I thought I accepted this already. But clearly I haven't I just need some reassurance that I'm not the only one. Because that's how I feel. I feel like an outcast, underdog, a loser. Why can't I just be normal? Why does this terrible thing have to exist?! I keep replaying the noise that comes from my mouth when I have a seizure. I can't get that awful sound out of my head! I need counseling. Or meditation. Or something! I hate life right now. I've never hated anything so much in my life. Sorry for being so angry I want to learn how to accept this. To understand that this is part of me...
Oh! And here is Some good news:
The coping with epilepsy is doing this "Hidden truths: a mind unravled" art show in California and guess what, my art got accepted into the show! It makes me happy!
Have a wonderful day/night!
Janellie
I just had this HUGE seizure- gosh I hate that word, seizure. And I feel like crapp. I thought I was done asking myself this question years ago, "why me?" Well, I don't know why okay!! I have so much anger towards my epilepsy. I feel like it's ruining my life. I thought I was done with those questions, I thought I accepted this already. But clearly I haven't I just need some reassurance that I'm not the only one. Because that's how I feel. I feel like an outcast, underdog, a loser. Why can't I just be normal? Why does this terrible thing have to exist?! I keep replaying the noise that comes from my mouth when I have a seizure. I can't get that awful sound out of my head! I need counseling. Or meditation. Or something! I hate life right now. I've never hated anything so much in my life. Sorry for being so angry I want to learn how to accept this. To understand that this is part of me...
Oh! And here is Some good news:
The coping with epilepsy is doing this "Hidden truths: a mind unravled" art show in California and guess what, my art got accepted into the show! It makes me happy!
Have a wonderful day/night!
Janellie
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