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I joined this forum because I've had epilepsy, due to AVM surgery, for ~5 years and recently have been told by neurologists and psychologist that I am bi-polar and that I need to see a psychiatrist. I'm so confused... are the two related?
I can't believe this is happening... I'm still not able to cope with my epilepsy in an open manner and teeter too much on the hopeless side along with embarrassment....
There is also an overwhelming fear to take more meds or switch around my meds to find that "balance"..... 2 weeks after my son was born over a year ago I experienced an overdose of Lamictal. Scared the living daylights out of me. For one... I was awake during the seizure... never happened before... and my limbs were flinging everywhere... I was screaming for help and a slew of obscenities... I was slumped over for 3 hours in waiting rooms for tests and such... I thought my luck had finally run out, but then I woke up out of that as if you would never have guessed I went through the whole ordeal. My doctor was out of town and the neurologist I went to see while this was all happening told me that I was extremely lucky that I was still alive. He immediately cut my meds down dramatically.
SO... although I have other issues in regards to self-esteem my largest problem is FEAR. Fear of taking extra meds. I realize that with a trained professional my fears should not be as intense. I just can't help it.
Is there anyone out there who is just too scared to take more meds and end up making up all sorts of excuses so that they can skip appointments? If so, how do you psych yourself into following through with treatment?
I can't believe this is happening... I'm still not able to cope with my epilepsy in an open manner and teeter too much on the hopeless side along with embarrassment....
There is also an overwhelming fear to take more meds or switch around my meds to find that "balance"..... 2 weeks after my son was born over a year ago I experienced an overdose of Lamictal. Scared the living daylights out of me. For one... I was awake during the seizure... never happened before... and my limbs were flinging everywhere... I was screaming for help and a slew of obscenities... I was slumped over for 3 hours in waiting rooms for tests and such... I thought my luck had finally run out, but then I woke up out of that as if you would never have guessed I went through the whole ordeal. My doctor was out of town and the neurologist I went to see while this was all happening told me that I was extremely lucky that I was still alive. He immediately cut my meds down dramatically.
SO... although I have other issues in regards to self-esteem my largest problem is FEAR. Fear of taking extra meds. I realize that with a trained professional my fears should not be as intense. I just can't help it.
Is there anyone out there who is just too scared to take more meds and end up making up all sorts of excuses so that they can skip appointments? If so, how do you psych yourself into following through with treatment?