Hello,
I am new here, I wanted to reach out to others with epilepsy. My seizures started about 4 years ago, it started very small with an eye twitch in my right eye. It started to get worse where when it happened it was like I wasn't there for a few seconds, I would zone out. Sometimes people noticed and sometimes they didn't. Then the loss of bladder control started coming with the eye twitch. It is humiliating to say the least but luckily it wasn't noticeable and I was able to hide it. I didn't know what was going on and was terrified to see a doctor so I (stupidly) didn't. I was only able to finally tell my long term boyfriend what exactly was going on about 2 years after it started (he noticed the twitch but didn't know about the loss of bladder control until I told him). In spring of last year I had my 1st grand mal, my boyfriend and I were asleep and he woke up to me making choking noises and my entire body convulsing. I went to the ER and they did a CT scan which they said looked normal. At that point I was uninsured so my options were limited.
I had 4 more grand mals after that. The eye twitch and everything that went with it continued. In the summer I saw a nurse practitioner at a walk in clinic. I described my eye twitch and she literally said "huh that's weird" and prescribed me Keppra for the grand mal activity and sent me on my way (not that I thought there was a whole lot they could do).
Finally this year I got insurance and could see a neurologist. He said I likely have partial epilepsy and he was hoping to pinpoint where the seizures were starting in my brain (where the abnormality causing the eye twitch was located). I had an MRI which looked normal and I spent 4 days in the hospital on restrictive bed rest while hooked up to an EEG which showed "no significant electrical changes" in my brain despite several eye twitch events occurring while I was there. So basically my brain looks totally normal but I still have this condition that has made me totally dependent on others seeing as I can't drive until I am event free for 90 days. My neurologist raised the dosage of my Keppra and added Lamictal to my meds that I've had to raise the dosage of every 2 weeks.
The last raise in dosage was recent and I noticed right away that the frequency and severity of the eye twitch decreased by a lot. Normality seemed within my reach. That was a huge relief. I'm too young to be having bladder control loss. And it felt like I was getting better. But the last couple of days I've been experiencing it again and it is so frustrating. I hope it's not but it feels like a huge setback. Again.
I came here to this forum because I am feeling so low and hopeless. I see my doc again in a few weeks and I just want to get better. I haven't had a grand mal in almost 6 months (knock on wood) but the eye twitch seizures and what follows has me feeling like I'm losing my mind. I just want to be normal again. I am lucky to have loving, supportive people in my life but there are still so many times I have felt alone and lost. And humiliated. I'm sorry for the lengthy sob story, I know I am lucky in lots of ways and so many have it much worse than I. I don't know what I'm expecting to gain from this but I wanted to try reaching out to others with epilepsy. It affected my life greatly and I just want to feel hope that it will get better. Thank you for listening.
I am new here, I wanted to reach out to others with epilepsy. My seizures started about 4 years ago, it started very small with an eye twitch in my right eye. It started to get worse where when it happened it was like I wasn't there for a few seconds, I would zone out. Sometimes people noticed and sometimes they didn't. Then the loss of bladder control started coming with the eye twitch. It is humiliating to say the least but luckily it wasn't noticeable and I was able to hide it. I didn't know what was going on and was terrified to see a doctor so I (stupidly) didn't. I was only able to finally tell my long term boyfriend what exactly was going on about 2 years after it started (he noticed the twitch but didn't know about the loss of bladder control until I told him). In spring of last year I had my 1st grand mal, my boyfriend and I were asleep and he woke up to me making choking noises and my entire body convulsing. I went to the ER and they did a CT scan which they said looked normal. At that point I was uninsured so my options were limited.
I had 4 more grand mals after that. The eye twitch and everything that went with it continued. In the summer I saw a nurse practitioner at a walk in clinic. I described my eye twitch and she literally said "huh that's weird" and prescribed me Keppra for the grand mal activity and sent me on my way (not that I thought there was a whole lot they could do).
Finally this year I got insurance and could see a neurologist. He said I likely have partial epilepsy and he was hoping to pinpoint where the seizures were starting in my brain (where the abnormality causing the eye twitch was located). I had an MRI which looked normal and I spent 4 days in the hospital on restrictive bed rest while hooked up to an EEG which showed "no significant electrical changes" in my brain despite several eye twitch events occurring while I was there. So basically my brain looks totally normal but I still have this condition that has made me totally dependent on others seeing as I can't drive until I am event free for 90 days. My neurologist raised the dosage of my Keppra and added Lamictal to my meds that I've had to raise the dosage of every 2 weeks.
The last raise in dosage was recent and I noticed right away that the frequency and severity of the eye twitch decreased by a lot. Normality seemed within my reach. That was a huge relief. I'm too young to be having bladder control loss. And it felt like I was getting better. But the last couple of days I've been experiencing it again and it is so frustrating. I hope it's not but it feels like a huge setback. Again.
I came here to this forum because I am feeling so low and hopeless. I see my doc again in a few weeks and I just want to get better. I haven't had a grand mal in almost 6 months (knock on wood) but the eye twitch seizures and what follows has me feeling like I'm losing my mind. I just want to be normal again. I am lucky to have loving, supportive people in my life but there are still so many times I have felt alone and lost. And humiliated. I'm sorry for the lengthy sob story, I know I am lucky in lots of ways and so many have it much worse than I. I don't know what I'm expecting to gain from this but I wanted to try reaching out to others with epilepsy. It affected my life greatly and I just want to feel hope that it will get better. Thank you for listening.