I say cry out loud, and let it out. holding it in is not good. Try your best to believe your doctor is just having a bad or and is obviously burnt out with his job. I am going to get the book Robin has suggested myself, I recommend anything she does. She is well learned of our illness, and sees it from another perspective and yet is so kind and understanding. We need more of you Robin.
I also suggest going to another neurologist. Might also see a phyciatrist as well, there are some real rough times and most other people don't want to hear about your problems. When there favourite show is on... Don't ask don't tell sort of thing. I have now begun to relate to our dogs in the house, as long as I am fed, everyone is free to come and go as they please, and my needs are put on hold. My needs, yeah I have them and they are urgent and different because of the epilepsy and severe anxiety and major depression. It is not like we can tell ourselves, don't have a fit until a certain tv show is over, after the softball game. Our friends and family forget we go through this as well, and know it is happening, don't like it any more than they do, but wow what a hug would do, but it is not given, just a snap because there day was rough. Or it all about me..
wooooh, sorrry I sort of let out there, feels good though! I am up late so anyone needing to talk let me know. Again, i go into the hospital for the is he faking or is it pseudo thingy.... on the 19th and have a meeting scheduled by Social Security to test my mental health. I was just about to dye my hair some weird color to have some fun at the hospital but now they have taken this from me as well.
ON a good note I sold my car the other day so I can afford this testing! lol