Welcome Clinton!!
You came to right place, as in one way or another we can all relate, and after being on long enough you'll end up 'meeting' someone with a situation pretty much identical to yours! There's a ton of people on here who have run the gamut... generalized, secondary generalized, uncontrolled, only controlled with like five meds at a time, depression, injuries from head to toe (and more surgeries to fix those), brain surgery patients, and some who are new like you as well as some who have had epilepsy for 50 years!! There isn't anything on here you can't talk about or ask about, someone or everyone will chime in to try and help.
Myself, 18 years of simple partials and five grand-mals in the last eight. I have an arachnoid cyst in my left temporal lobe and am on my third med. The last mri after the last grand-mal (11 mos. ago) showed a possibility of mesial sclerosis so my doc and I agreed it was time to head off to the Epilepsy Centre and get investigating. Am now doing follow-ups and waiting to get into the monitoring unit to see if I need surgery (most people say 'If I'm a good candidate' however I find it hard to put it that way as in the end I'll only do this because I NEED to to try and improve/save my life, but actually having the surgery is the last thing in the world I am brave enough to do).
It's just that it's been going on for too many years that it was time to 'admit' to myself that my quality of life is only going to deteriorate if I don't do something, so now it's a wait and see. Very depressed, scared, and yes it all takes a toll.
Like I said everyone here can offer support because we all know the hell that this can feel like. (((HUGS friend))).
