I have experienced these religious episodes too.
When I was a teenager I had some paranormal experiences which scared me resulting in my visiting a priest. Throughout the years since I have had visions and believed that God was trying to give me some sort of message. I knew that if I told people I may be thought of as 'crazy' so I kept most of it to myself and thought that anyone could have these visions and messages if they just went into a deep prayer as I did.
These signs and visions made me believe in a higher power and I began to feel lucky that I could get into this state. Sometimes I would feel ecstatic as if I had the key to the meaning of life, but I just could not really explain it when it passed.
Last year I started to feel terrible fear and would be stuck frozen, sweating and feel like vomiting afterwards. I had 8 - 10 of these a day at its worst.
After consulting a Neurologist I now believe that instead of God it may have been seizure activity. I still do have a faith but now my view of things has changed.
Is it really terrible to say that I really miss those episodes? They were some of the best experiences of my life. The problem was that they changed into what i believe is called Ictal fear and I never want to go through that again.
When I hear about Religious holy people that have had these visions and auras it makes me wonder if they actually are like us!
When I was a teenager I had some paranormal experiences which scared me resulting in my visiting a priest. Throughout the years since I have had visions and believed that God was trying to give me some sort of message. I knew that if I told people I may be thought of as 'crazy' so I kept most of it to myself and thought that anyone could have these visions and messages if they just went into a deep prayer as I did.
These signs and visions made me believe in a higher power and I began to feel lucky that I could get into this state. Sometimes I would feel ecstatic as if I had the key to the meaning of life, but I just could not really explain it when it passed.
Last year I started to feel terrible fear and would be stuck frozen, sweating and feel like vomiting afterwards. I had 8 - 10 of these a day at its worst.
After consulting a Neurologist I now believe that instead of God it may have been seizure activity. I still do have a faith but now my view of things has changed.
Is it really terrible to say that I really miss those episodes? They were some of the best experiences of my life. The problem was that they changed into what i believe is called Ictal fear and I never want to go through that again.
When I hear about Religious holy people that have had these visions and auras it makes me wonder if they actually are like us!