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Hi all,
I'm finally working on owning the diagnosis. Still having a little difficulty with it because of all of the stigma that was associated with it when I was growing up.
Seriously, my first knowledge of epilepsy was my stepfather coming home talking about the 'demon possessed man' that they had to hold down.
My second exposure was my cousin who had diabetic seizures and that wasn't pretty either. I was with her by myself when it happened and it scared the tar out of me.
My third exposure to seizures/epilepsy was a man who was all banged up from grand mal seizures and he was talking about all of the problems he'd had with it and they took his drivers license away.
So, to make a long story short, I was in the midst of dealing with my alcholism and child abuse issues and my therapist sent my to a psychiatrist who told me that there was nothing wrong except that I was having 'mini seizures of the brain' and some associated anxiety.
This was the second doctor who diagnosed me that way and I told him that the first time was a nightmare and that the guy had given me tegritol and it had sent me to the emergency room all seized up like a pretzel. I had gotten to the point that I was having difficulty breathing by that time. They pumped me full of benedryl and sent me home.
So this doctor gave me the generic for it and the same thing happened again. I called him up and cussed him out. He said maybe I should find another doctor.
I believed that because the medication caused a visible seizure, something that I could actually percieve myself that these guys were both quacks and that I didn't have epilepsy.
I met a guy in an AA meeting the other night and he told me he had grand mal seizures and that tegritol at too high a dosage did the same thing to him. He sucks the pill for a little while and spit it out and he was okay.
So, I did some research all last night and it seems to me that for the past 20 years of being diagnosed, they may not have been completely wrong but it may be that they missed the mark a little bit.
There are other symptoms that I have been having that make sense now and I'm wondering if I should go to the doctor at all and risk having my drivers license pulled.
Steph
I'm finally working on owning the diagnosis. Still having a little difficulty with it because of all of the stigma that was associated with it when I was growing up.
Seriously, my first knowledge of epilepsy was my stepfather coming home talking about the 'demon possessed man' that they had to hold down.
My second exposure was my cousin who had diabetic seizures and that wasn't pretty either. I was with her by myself when it happened and it scared the tar out of me.
My third exposure to seizures/epilepsy was a man who was all banged up from grand mal seizures and he was talking about all of the problems he'd had with it and they took his drivers license away.
So, to make a long story short, I was in the midst of dealing with my alcholism and child abuse issues and my therapist sent my to a psychiatrist who told me that there was nothing wrong except that I was having 'mini seizures of the brain' and some associated anxiety.
This was the second doctor who diagnosed me that way and I told him that the first time was a nightmare and that the guy had given me tegritol and it had sent me to the emergency room all seized up like a pretzel. I had gotten to the point that I was having difficulty breathing by that time. They pumped me full of benedryl and sent me home.
So this doctor gave me the generic for it and the same thing happened again. I called him up and cussed him out. He said maybe I should find another doctor.
I believed that because the medication caused a visible seizure, something that I could actually percieve myself that these guys were both quacks and that I didn't have epilepsy.
I met a guy in an AA meeting the other night and he told me he had grand mal seizures and that tegritol at too high a dosage did the same thing to him. He sucks the pill for a little while and spit it out and he was okay.
So, I did some research all last night and it seems to me that for the past 20 years of being diagnosed, they may not have been completely wrong but it may be that they missed the mark a little bit.
There are other symptoms that I have been having that make sense now and I'm wondering if I should go to the doctor at all and risk having my drivers license pulled.
Steph