I'm 38 and I had my first big seizure last month went to ER for test CAT MRI and blood work was admitted, but left because I had a terrible headache and couldn't wait any longer for a hospital room to open up. But followed up with a neruo a couple days later. He explained to me that I had "Epilepsy" and he went over the list of Don'ts and said that the seizure started from migraine (I don't remember a headache that day) then had a TIA(had couple before but nothing like this) then partial seizure with secondary generalized seizure. He put me on Topamax 1 1X am 1st week. week 2 1in am 1 in pm. week 3 supposed to do 1 am 2 pm, but couldn't stand side effects anymore (headaches start of the day, pin needles hands feet face, cant think or talk right, noises and smells bother me ( or do I smell) brushing teeth 3 times before work 2times during day. don't like diet coke anymore foods bother me lost 8 pounds.Called Dr. didn't want to increase because of side effects made appt for follow up. Had brief twitching scare but was aware called and took increase 2 in pm 1 in am. At appt Doc said video EEG was normal offered me depression meds and different AED. I asked him to please go over the hospital results with me again and he said all it says that I had was a "Sinus infection"!!! So I asked him then if I can go off this medicine its making me sick he said "ok go down 1 pill a week" and chances will be 50/50 I'll have another seizure. I don't mind any chances, I really feel like this has poisoned me especially my mind. I'm having a hard time remembering if I told my kids to do something or just thought about saying it. Any advice?