thanks to everyone it sure means a lot and is a lot of help for me cause it sure is very hard my son was a very good responsible man who we were very proud of he had everything going for him a good job his new home he just bought his new wife a new car he just got married and had a beautiful baby boy he was doing everything right he was a wonderful boy growing up who loved sports and always played every sport always did his best in everything he did he was a perfectionist and loved by everybody and had a lot of people who were jealous because of what he had accomplished at such a young age I always told him to ignore those people and just be thankful of everything which he was. I miss him so much its so hard to keep going I know I have too. but its hard