Who wants to see some surgery photos?

[petero]

And I've been having bizarre feelings about it though... my seizures were bad tonic clonic, and far apart, and so it has really been feeling like "we're going to give you a lobotomy for something you have no idea about! Whee!!" - though I'm working on emotional and logical thought processes though... here are a few though--->
(Oh, and not to forget I'm pretty certain the surgery caused a chronic subdural hematoma (which I've figured out I believe can be fatal) which was discovered later post-surgery and was discovered and handled around 6 weeks post-surgery, with another surgery.)

I want to add more typing but I need to give myself a bit of time. It freaks me out going over this stuff. It makes me think of some kind of process I had no reasoning for in a way... (oh, hence the Frankenstein and cartoon - harharhar)


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[Topcat]

All the best, I hope and pray that it works for you. A scar is a slight thing if it does.

 

[petero]

I keep having creepy and miserable feelings about it but I'm trying to get normal again or whatever and feel *good* about it. Heck I haven't had a typical seizure yet. But thank you!

 

[KevTMC0309]

I'm Praying for you Brother....

 

[Nakamova]

Peter, I hope you heal quickly and that your brain behaves now.

 

[petero]

Thanks y'all - in a way I'm still dealing with a kind of thing that's like "seizures? wth are ya talking about? I've never seen myself have a seizure, but right now I feel like s**t, so leave me alone!" But for others there was a different sort of realization, because they experienced them outside-in, not inside-out, or whatever, like I was (and yeah, no seizures for 4 months now... but I'm still freaking out - ughhh - it might have been "easier" in a way if I could have experienced more outside-in... but oh! I do have one vid clip of myself having a seizure (family recorded it), but still it's still a bizarre concept in my mind, kind of like "what did they do to me?" And the scarring actually kind of helps in a way, as well as a CT scan CD-ROM I got from the hospital... but still a lot of miserable bizarre thinking

 

[Nakamova]

I could see how it might feel freaky. Are you seeing anyone for any kind of therapy?

 

[petero]

I'm going to see someone for a bit I guess - a calming vibe place that was recommended - other family had talked there too

*edit*
Oh! And actually I've been chatting with a local person who's been through similar surgery years ago��
Hopefully to meat at some point I'm thinking

 

[Nakamova]

That's great! Sounds like you are doing all the right things.

 

[gymrat827]

are you doing anything for the scars..?

 

[gymrat827]

i was going to have a 2 or 3 stage surgery at Mayo (in MN) but the chances of improvement were so bleak, the surgery itself seemed almost harmful.

Plus i would need to stay there for 6-10wks for recovery....

 

[petero]

are you doing anything for the scars..?

Eeek - stupid me I have a website stuck on my phone webpages --->
[ http://m.wikihow.com/Get-Rid-of-Scars ]
...but I kind of keep skipping it... I've done the olive oil thing a couple/few times, but it's just hard to keep it in my mind in that way... it's even weird to comprehend that scarring still other than what is going through my thinking... but now that you mention it again I'll make sure to do it again tomorrow before shower!