AndrewIrish
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Hey all,
I'm trying to get into a community college near me, yet I've hit a huge problem. I've only done the application and sent my transcripts - next step for me to do is a COMPASS test. I'm being mentored by my Aunt whom is a professor at the college(We're not very close, though - she is wonderful, by the way.)
I'm 22, now. Taken my time in trying to get to college, I suppose. Problem I have and I talked with her about it - my big trigger is calculation/strategy. When I was in my younger teens - I was practically off the chart, nearly genius levels, in everything. Latter and most of High School though, I could NEVER get past eveb BASIC Algebra. It's my trigger. I can't do it, it brings on my jerks and eventually TC's.
I'm scared, here.
I finally tonight, looked at a practice compass test. Damn near 80% of it is based on Algebra/Mathematics. I'm not saying I'm stupid - let me take it VERY slow, very offhand and I'll get the right answer - in the degree and time a college wants - I'd have to basically say, 'I can't do it.'
My anut mentione that she works with 'special needs' students and could pribably get me another '30 minutes' for the test, if I went through her(She said Epilepy qualifies...) yet, I feel like I'm destroyed. I just can't do it. I go into these caulculations and my mind goes berserk. Always has - it's the reason why almost 7 years ago, I never even GOT past Basic Algebra.
I don't know what to do.
Grammar, History, Art, Science - nearly anything else, I will be and have tested EXTRAORDINARILY at. Yet, when it comes to truly, almost anything concerning NUMBERS - it's my trigger.
Looking at the COMPASS Test(The Bar to which your ability is tested.... as far as intellect is concerned...) I feel as if I'm a moron. For the first time in my life - I feel truly disabled. I'm scared, I feel stupid and I don't know what to do. I can do this test, if given many, many hours. That's not going to happen.
I don't know what to do, here.
I'm a smart man, I pride myself on that. With this though, it makes me question going to college at all, though. If simple numbers are all they want, why bother?
I'm so trapped, right now. Don't know what to do. I need this epilepsy to go away, I need to be able to concentrate, I need to have my mind back...
... what do I do? More time on a test won't do me anything? I'll be made to look like an absolutely mentally retarded person(Whom such peoples I have nothing against, only slight-hearted sympathy and hope...) yet it's not whom I am.
Has ANYBODY ever gone through something like this? Any advice, opinions?
It's such a strange thing but I feel as if I'm truly... marked for something other then college - as if my brain won't allow me to show my true potential.
Don't know what to do. It's the reason I can't play Chess. I can't play 'move the truck' - anything visual and I can't do it. Anything textual I can't do it. Anything that requires me to THINK and I can't do it.
I'm so pissed off - at myself. I can get through these roadblocks, I have the mind for it, I can be an important person, I can contribute to the world - yet even the most basic of introductory of tests, I'm done for.
Don't know what to do - don't know how to handle this. Medical and social community don't accept this, so I feel just... pre-judged, somehow, if that's even a correct concentration of word usage.
I've been a writer, a poet, a psychologist and a theorist all my lfie, yet it seems as if basic, non-essential calculation is going to be my undoing.
I know that COMPASS test is just for an evaluation of learning - they may insist I do a remedial course in math/Algebra/WHAT HAVE YOU... yet I don't feel I'll ever pass.
Honesty out these, the epilepsy has messed with me so much and continues to do so to this day, I gave up numbers many years ago, beyond basic cunputation and arithmetic(to this day, which I'm unmatchable in...)
I feel lost - any ideas? Anyway to forgo this or am I just screwed in today's math-absorbed technological machine?
Should I just give up dreams of college? I won't do it at half-stand - I want to be someone great and give something great back to the world. I just don't feel capable...
I'm trying to get into a community college near me, yet I've hit a huge problem. I've only done the application and sent my transcripts - next step for me to do is a COMPASS test. I'm being mentored by my Aunt whom is a professor at the college(We're not very close, though - she is wonderful, by the way.)
I'm 22, now. Taken my time in trying to get to college, I suppose. Problem I have and I talked with her about it - my big trigger is calculation/strategy. When I was in my younger teens - I was practically off the chart, nearly genius levels, in everything. Latter and most of High School though, I could NEVER get past eveb BASIC Algebra. It's my trigger. I can't do it, it brings on my jerks and eventually TC's.
I'm scared, here.
I finally tonight, looked at a practice compass test. Damn near 80% of it is based on Algebra/Mathematics. I'm not saying I'm stupid - let me take it VERY slow, very offhand and I'll get the right answer - in the degree and time a college wants - I'd have to basically say, 'I can't do it.'
My anut mentione that she works with 'special needs' students and could pribably get me another '30 minutes' for the test, if I went through her(She said Epilepy qualifies...) yet, I feel like I'm destroyed. I just can't do it. I go into these caulculations and my mind goes berserk. Always has - it's the reason why almost 7 years ago, I never even GOT past Basic Algebra.
I don't know what to do.
Grammar, History, Art, Science - nearly anything else, I will be and have tested EXTRAORDINARILY at. Yet, when it comes to truly, almost anything concerning NUMBERS - it's my trigger.
Looking at the COMPASS Test(The Bar to which your ability is tested.... as far as intellect is concerned...) I feel as if I'm a moron. For the first time in my life - I feel truly disabled. I'm scared, I feel stupid and I don't know what to do. I can do this test, if given many, many hours. That's not going to happen.
I don't know what to do, here.
I'm a smart man, I pride myself on that. With this though, it makes me question going to college at all, though. If simple numbers are all they want, why bother?
I'm so trapped, right now. Don't know what to do. I need this epilepsy to go away, I need to be able to concentrate, I need to have my mind back...
... what do I do? More time on a test won't do me anything? I'll be made to look like an absolutely mentally retarded person(Whom such peoples I have nothing against, only slight-hearted sympathy and hope...) yet it's not whom I am.
Has ANYBODY ever gone through something like this? Any advice, opinions?
It's such a strange thing but I feel as if I'm truly... marked for something other then college - as if my brain won't allow me to show my true potential.
Don't know what to do. It's the reason I can't play Chess. I can't play 'move the truck' - anything visual and I can't do it. Anything textual I can't do it. Anything that requires me to THINK and I can't do it.
I'm so pissed off - at myself. I can get through these roadblocks, I have the mind for it, I can be an important person, I can contribute to the world - yet even the most basic of introductory of tests, I'm done for.
Don't know what to do - don't know how to handle this. Medical and social community don't accept this, so I feel just... pre-judged, somehow, if that's even a correct concentration of word usage.
I've been a writer, a poet, a psychologist and a theorist all my lfie, yet it seems as if basic, non-essential calculation is going to be my undoing.
I know that COMPASS test is just for an evaluation of learning - they may insist I do a remedial course in math/Algebra/WHAT HAVE YOU... yet I don't feel I'll ever pass.
Honesty out these, the epilepsy has messed with me so much and continues to do so to this day, I gave up numbers many years ago, beyond basic cunputation and arithmetic(to this day, which I'm unmatchable in...)
I feel lost - any ideas? Anyway to forgo this or am I just screwed in today's math-absorbed technological machine?
Should I just give up dreams of college? I won't do it at half-stand - I want to be someone great and give something great back to the world. I just don't feel capable...