I want to raise a kind of a deeper and more serious issue. It's something I have thought of a lot recently but it's very important to me.
One of the reasons I'm on the lowest possible dose of Keppra I can tolerate is not because of the side effects of a higher dose, but because I don't want to lower my brain activity. Everyone knows that a lot of great historical figures had epilepsy. Some of my greatest inspirations like Edgar Allan Poe, Napoleon, Vincent van Gogh, Doestoyevsky, Philip K Dick, Caesar, etc.. all had epilepsy at a time where there was no cure. They all still managed to achieve great things, and I have no doubt that their untreated epilepsy was a part of it. The bad side of epilepsy is known to everyone, but I'm sure there is a good side to it. But I also find it strange that there were no prominent scientists with epilepsy.
There must be something in the higher brain activity of epileptics that triggers bursts of creativity and inspiration. After a seizure I am often blessed with a drug-like euphoria, where everything falls together in my mind and I feel like anything is possible. My medication, however, I feel changes me so much. I become dull, lose my creative energy and feel like sleeping a lot. When I experimented going off Keppra the week I had before my seizure showed me how different I was - much more energy and zest. Now back on the meds my memory is terrible, and I feel like doing nothing and achieving nothing.
I wonder what we are losing by medicating ourselves to the point our brains are no longer what they were. What would I be able to achieve without my medicine, and would it be worth putting up with seizures to get to it?
Does anyone else feel this way, or have something to say about it? Any input would be appreciated because it's something i've been thinking about a lot. Thanks!
One of the reasons I'm on the lowest possible dose of Keppra I can tolerate is not because of the side effects of a higher dose, but because I don't want to lower my brain activity. Everyone knows that a lot of great historical figures had epilepsy. Some of my greatest inspirations like Edgar Allan Poe, Napoleon, Vincent van Gogh, Doestoyevsky, Philip K Dick, Caesar, etc.. all had epilepsy at a time where there was no cure. They all still managed to achieve great things, and I have no doubt that their untreated epilepsy was a part of it. The bad side of epilepsy is known to everyone, but I'm sure there is a good side to it. But I also find it strange that there were no prominent scientists with epilepsy.
There must be something in the higher brain activity of epileptics that triggers bursts of creativity and inspiration. After a seizure I am often blessed with a drug-like euphoria, where everything falls together in my mind and I feel like anything is possible. My medication, however, I feel changes me so much. I become dull, lose my creative energy and feel like sleeping a lot. When I experimented going off Keppra the week I had before my seizure showed me how different I was - much more energy and zest. Now back on the meds my memory is terrible, and I feel like doing nothing and achieving nothing.
I wonder what we are losing by medicating ourselves to the point our brains are no longer what they were. What would I be able to achieve without my medicine, and would it be worth putting up with seizures to get to it?
Does anyone else feel this way, or have something to say about it? Any input would be appreciated because it's something i've been thinking about a lot. Thanks!
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