Crazy Monkey
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Today was a new start for me at work, my Boss (who's job was cut 3 months ago) has finally left the company and taken her childish, pathetic behaviour with her. I am now free to restructure my department and make my mark on the office.
I work in an office that is partitioned off from the main, open plan office, but now that we are a person down, my manager requested for the partitions to be moved so that we could all mingle and generally make the office look more uniform.
Accept I forgot one thing, the new person that I selected to tell about my E, he is the closest person sitting at a desk looking in my direction. He keeps glancing discretely in my direction and I couldn't think why he would be looking at me so oddly. Then the penny dropped, he is watching for me to have an absence seizure.
When I have an absence seizure, I lose consciousness, I don't just sit still and stare into space, what happens is my eyeballs roll up for as long as 20-30seconds, so that you can very nearly only see the whites of my eyes (creepy) and I can also make various movements. So it is obvious that a seizure is taking place for anyone watching. Though sometimes they are smaller (3-20 seconds) and I can sometimes get away with them not being noticed.
I feel very uncomfortable with this new situation as there are 12 other people in the office that can see me having seizures as I am on full view. Hopefully the person that does know, will stop glancing at me otherwise I will feel inclined too start pulling faces at him or find ammunition to hurl in his direction. I have only been open plan for about 2 hours today, but I know tomorrow if he keeps looking he will see me having seizures as they are worst in the morning, I currently feel like a monkey in a zoo.
I have been protected for so long either in my own office or behind the partitions that I have now hit reality and the fact is that the other people in the office will probably see me having seizures over the course of time and I am not sure if I am ready for that.
I work in an office that is partitioned off from the main, open plan office, but now that we are a person down, my manager requested for the partitions to be moved so that we could all mingle and generally make the office look more uniform.
Accept I forgot one thing, the new person that I selected to tell about my E, he is the closest person sitting at a desk looking in my direction. He keeps glancing discretely in my direction and I couldn't think why he would be looking at me so oddly. Then the penny dropped, he is watching for me to have an absence seizure.
When I have an absence seizure, I lose consciousness, I don't just sit still and stare into space, what happens is my eyeballs roll up for as long as 20-30seconds, so that you can very nearly only see the whites of my eyes (creepy) and I can also make various movements. So it is obvious that a seizure is taking place for anyone watching. Though sometimes they are smaller (3-20 seconds) and I can sometimes get away with them not being noticed.
I feel very uncomfortable with this new situation as there are 12 other people in the office that can see me having seizures as I am on full view. Hopefully the person that does know, will stop glancing at me otherwise I will feel inclined too start pulling faces at him or find ammunition to hurl in his direction. I have only been open plan for about 2 hours today, but I know tomorrow if he keeps looking he will see me having seizures as they are worst in the morning, I currently feel like a monkey in a zoo.
I have been protected for so long either in my own office or behind the partitions that I have now hit reality and the fact is that the other people in the office will probably see me having seizures over the course of time and I am not sure if I am ready for that.
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