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Well, I started my three-day EEG yesterday. I dunno if it's because I knew this thing was on my head, but I did not sleep well at all! Anyway, super tired today. Did anyone else get bad headaches when they did this? I had an AWFUL headache yesterday. Like, I could hardly function headache. I think that only happened after my grand mal seizures, and then I was mostly passed out, so I don't remember much of them. Today I guess I still have a bit of a headache, but it's nothing to impact me (I was in the store yesterday and was in so much pain). Just curious... I was thinking maybe having these things on my head was impacting it, but it doesn't really make sense...
Anyway, I had an interesting conversation with the EEG tech. I know she's not a doctor, but she's been doing this for over ten years, and her daughter has epilepsy, so she knows a decent bit about the whole process. I asked her about the abnormal EEGs when you feel no seizure activity, and she explained it pretty well, and it kind of explained some other random stuff I've noticed, but thought maybe I was over thinking.
What she said was that even if you feel normal, when the electrical (damn can't remember the name) tries to pass through the synapse, and something is wrong, it basically backfires. Often times you won't show any noticeable symptoms, but you might have a slight twitch somewhere. She used the eye as an example. Nothing you would really pay attention to, but something that's there. I've been getting random little finger twitches/toe twitches/FEELING like I'm getting leg twitches (basically I can't see anything move, but it feels weird). Anywho, it was interesting, because I thought maybe I was imagining these things. Sometimes I still think it's the power of suggestion, but it does make sense...
In other news, I am getting REALLY frustrated. Sometimes I guess it doesn't quite hit me that this is a lifetime problem. I keep thinking "Oh, mine isn't bad, I can drive soon and live like anyone else" (I still think I can do what most people do anyway), but then the driving keeps getting kicked back, I'm still having partials, despite being on the right levels of medication (or I think I am, this is what my neurologist wants to confirm). So now I'm thinking, maybe just because I'm not losing consciousness doesn't mean that maybe I have it as good as I thought. I guess because I went over two years without anything after my first seizure. Anyway, trying to get a ride back from the airport, which is an hour away, after I visit my boyfriend. I'm getting SO frustrated because everyone here is going on leave, so I can't find anyone. I'd have to pay 120 dollars for a taxi BOTH ways if I can't get a ride
And then I've realized, damn, if I can't drive, like... EVER, there goes the way of life I was used to. I'm getting used to not driving now, but what happens when I leave this place where everyone knows my situation, and I can hardly drive places I need to get?
That's another thing, I have started doing some volunteering type work at the clinic across the street (not really volunteering, but an actual job) so I'm not just sitting around all day in transition. This is my first time trying to work since all of this happened. I was struggling SO hard to pay attention and take everything in. I suppose it's probably medication, or maybe the fact that the epilepsy got so much worse after that seizure that got me out of AFghanistan. I don't know, but now I'm thinking... how can I function when I can't even focus? GAH.
Okay, done now
Anyway, I had an interesting conversation with the EEG tech. I know she's not a doctor, but she's been doing this for over ten years, and her daughter has epilepsy, so she knows a decent bit about the whole process. I asked her about the abnormal EEGs when you feel no seizure activity, and she explained it pretty well, and it kind of explained some other random stuff I've noticed, but thought maybe I was over thinking.
What she said was that even if you feel normal, when the electrical (damn can't remember the name) tries to pass through the synapse, and something is wrong, it basically backfires. Often times you won't show any noticeable symptoms, but you might have a slight twitch somewhere. She used the eye as an example. Nothing you would really pay attention to, but something that's there. I've been getting random little finger twitches/toe twitches/FEELING like I'm getting leg twitches (basically I can't see anything move, but it feels weird). Anywho, it was interesting, because I thought maybe I was imagining these things. Sometimes I still think it's the power of suggestion, but it does make sense...
In other news, I am getting REALLY frustrated. Sometimes I guess it doesn't quite hit me that this is a lifetime problem. I keep thinking "Oh, mine isn't bad, I can drive soon and live like anyone else" (I still think I can do what most people do anyway), but then the driving keeps getting kicked back, I'm still having partials, despite being on the right levels of medication (or I think I am, this is what my neurologist wants to confirm). So now I'm thinking, maybe just because I'm not losing consciousness doesn't mean that maybe I have it as good as I thought. I guess because I went over two years without anything after my first seizure. Anyway, trying to get a ride back from the airport, which is an hour away, after I visit my boyfriend. I'm getting SO frustrated because everyone here is going on leave, so I can't find anyone. I'd have to pay 120 dollars for a taxi BOTH ways if I can't get a ride

That's another thing, I have started doing some volunteering type work at the clinic across the street (not really volunteering, but an actual job) so I'm not just sitting around all day in transition. This is my first time trying to work since all of this happened. I was struggling SO hard to pay attention and take everything in. I suppose it's probably medication, or maybe the fact that the epilepsy got so much worse after that seizure that got me out of AFghanistan. I don't know, but now I'm thinking... how can I function when I can't even focus? GAH.
Okay, done now
