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Last night I had a partial complex seizure. That's what I get, so I'm told, and I'm working hard on accepting this epilepsy diagnosis and all that comes with it. It is what it is. I lurk here a lot and I'm inspired by all of you very much.
So last night, my memory is very fuzzy, but from what I can put together from my parents and the home security company, I apparently set my house alarm, thought I (or actually) heard the door bell, the dogs were barking so something was up, I got up from the couch (I have no idea why the house alarm was set), thought I saw a woman at my door (in retrospect it could have been my own reflection in the window), opened the door and one of my dogs escaped. It was pouring rain. I triggered the house alarm, but my focus was on my dog. I chased after him but was apparently having a seizure. So, I fell. I tried to get up, I fell again and I don't know how many times this happened because I can't really remember. I have flashes of memory. Finally getting the dog, losing him again, getting him again, getting inside, trying to turn the alarm off, the alarm company calling, me giving the wrong code word then the right one, them saying the police were on the way but they would cancel, me going upstairs to change out of soaking wet clothes, my parents (who live 20 minutes away) in my bedroom while I'm changing in my closet and me yelling, "I'M NAKED!!" Apparently I set the alarm off twice and the alarm company called them the second time instead of the police and I wasn't answering my phone. These are all flashes that occurred over about 90 minutes.
Aside from the sheer frustration, stress, fear, relief that my kids were with their father (although they are teens and none of this likely would have happened had they been home), anyway...
To my plea for help. Today as the day has progressed I feel worse and worse, I have huge bruises on both knees, my right elbow, my left hip, and my left hand hurts a lot, my back hurts as well. My muscles seem to be getting tighter and tighter as the day progresses. My knees were bare when I fell multiple times so they are scratched too as are the tops of my feet and the side of one arm. I went to work with long pants and 3/4 sleeves so only one bruise/scratch showed and I'm off tomorrow. What is the best thing for these muscle aches, pains, bruises? Heat? Ice? Tylenol? Aleve? Or just time. I also hit the back of my head twice because I don't have enough brain problems as it is. :/
Ok, there's the self pity. The good news, my dog Buster came back, I know I will look back at this and laugh when I feel better, the police didn't show up to assume I was on alcohol or drugs, while I was literally lying in a gutter of rain water unable to get up, my dog did return and sat next to me, my parents, though over protective, drop whatever they're doing to be by my side when this happens, I still have a job for now, and there are other people in this world who understand what I'm going through and don't think I'm crazy - my coworker "friend" was pissed off at me for coming to work today. I don't have a choice right now.
Thanks for any advice. I have a feeling it's that I just have to wait it out. Right? This too shall pass...
So last night, my memory is very fuzzy, but from what I can put together from my parents and the home security company, I apparently set my house alarm, thought I (or actually) heard the door bell, the dogs were barking so something was up, I got up from the couch (I have no idea why the house alarm was set), thought I saw a woman at my door (in retrospect it could have been my own reflection in the window), opened the door and one of my dogs escaped. It was pouring rain. I triggered the house alarm, but my focus was on my dog. I chased after him but was apparently having a seizure. So, I fell. I tried to get up, I fell again and I don't know how many times this happened because I can't really remember. I have flashes of memory. Finally getting the dog, losing him again, getting him again, getting inside, trying to turn the alarm off, the alarm company calling, me giving the wrong code word then the right one, them saying the police were on the way but they would cancel, me going upstairs to change out of soaking wet clothes, my parents (who live 20 minutes away) in my bedroom while I'm changing in my closet and me yelling, "I'M NAKED!!" Apparently I set the alarm off twice and the alarm company called them the second time instead of the police and I wasn't answering my phone. These are all flashes that occurred over about 90 minutes.
Aside from the sheer frustration, stress, fear, relief that my kids were with their father (although they are teens and none of this likely would have happened had they been home), anyway...
To my plea for help. Today as the day has progressed I feel worse and worse, I have huge bruises on both knees, my right elbow, my left hip, and my left hand hurts a lot, my back hurts as well. My muscles seem to be getting tighter and tighter as the day progresses. My knees were bare when I fell multiple times so they are scratched too as are the tops of my feet and the side of one arm. I went to work with long pants and 3/4 sleeves so only one bruise/scratch showed and I'm off tomorrow. What is the best thing for these muscle aches, pains, bruises? Heat? Ice? Tylenol? Aleve? Or just time. I also hit the back of my head twice because I don't have enough brain problems as it is. :/
Ok, there's the self pity. The good news, my dog Buster came back, I know I will look back at this and laugh when I feel better, the police didn't show up to assume I was on alcohol or drugs, while I was literally lying in a gutter of rain water unable to get up, my dog did return and sat next to me, my parents, though over protective, drop whatever they're doing to be by my side when this happens, I still have a job for now, and there are other people in this world who understand what I'm going through and don't think I'm crazy - my coworker "friend" was pissed off at me for coming to work today. I don't have a choice right now.
Thanks for any advice. I have a feeling it's that I just have to wait it out. Right? This too shall pass...