Hi There All
I just read through a few of our previous chats, and realised that I haven't been on here for a while. Following on from what we were all discussing, I was at the doctor's yesterday, and as I recently had a few bad days, and have been plagued with both Simple and Complex Partials, I asked him what he suggested. I am to increase the Keppra to 1500mg am and leave it at 1000mg pm, also to continue with the Trileptal 1000mg am and 1000mg pm. I know why I've been so bad lately, it's stress, I just cannot get a job anywhere, last week, I had an interview for a Teaching Assistant position, at a local school. I didn't get the job, and they told me that 350 people applied for this one job!! It is unbelieveable in the UK at the moment, I bet a lot of those other applicants were people with degrees who are trying to get into teaching positions, and just can't find work. I must stay positive, but I just know that if I can get back "out there into the big wide world" again, I will be a lot better, and once I can be given new challenges and goals, I won't even have time to think about epilepsy, let alone have any problems with it!!
The menopause continues to haunt me, I've always been a big dreamer, but I am having the most horrendous nightmares at the moment, and when I wake up each morning, I really do have to jump out of bed, get a shower, and shake myself out of it, they sort of stay in my mind for about an hour after I'm awake, does anyone else have this problem? I have always said, that there is a definate connection with Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and dreaming, I can remember dreams from when I was a kid, and my long term memory is indescribably accurate and clear
I'm still feeling pretty emotional, but since I was last on here, I haven't been quite so miserable in the mornings, thank God!! I do mostly have my epilepsy more in the morning than the rest of the day, I was out with Mark the other night, we were having a drink in our local and the landlord came over to ask how I'd been, I just burst into tears!! God, I felt such a prat and couldn't apologise enough, his partner came over and hugged me, I just kept thinking, I must invest in waterproof mascarra for when I'm feeling a bit down! I was laughing my head off ten minutes later, and it was as though nothing had happened, wow, the female brain eh?!
While I'm here, can I ask for your opinions on something that recently happened to a mate of mine, who also has epilepsy, and has had surgery.
Bill had a very bad seizure at home, it sounds a bit like it was Status Epilepticus as he was in and out of it for some time, an ambulance was called for him, and he was taken to casualty. He was still in the seizure when he arrived there, and his mum was with him by this time, as his wife stayed home to look after their young family. His mum distinctly heard two nurses who were nearby say, "Look at the state of him, you can tell a mile away that he's putting it on and pretending to have a seizure to get our sympathy!!" can you belive that? She was raging, and made no secret that she had heard what they said, and she gave them both barrells of her anger. When he came round, he was told that there wasn't a bed for him, and he should either go home, or be taken to another hospital (he was in a pretty bad way apparantly). He has asked me to find out what you all think about this, and is his mother right to file a complaint about this treatment? How sick can you get though, we all know how disgusting it is to think someone could possibly fake a bloody seizure, I was really angry when I heard about this, and I know for a fact, that if it had been me, and my mum had heard this, she would have gone beserk, I think it is very bad, but I promised him I would ask your opinions, and what would you and your family have all done?
I look forward to hearing from you all, and I'm pleased to say that the sun is out today, so I am going to do some gardening. Love to you all, and thanks so much for just being there, it means so much to me!
God Bless
Love
Elaine xxxx