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Break ups, Holloween Costumes, How I handle things. ; ) Adult content
Ok so Ive reasontly been dumped by this amazing guy or shall I say retarded self centered sex crazed bum that hardly texted me after the first month.
Ok.............so we'r not really separated I'm trying to save the relationship by telling him we should take a break for two weeks- get some air.
I know I just bad mouthed him....but you dont understand the types of arguements we've been having lately.
Anyways...I dont even know what I'm going to do, I'm tired as heck
And I'm not sure why I'm posting this. I think for hope that everything works out? I know I'm young...I'm 19...But I know people whove fallin in love at 16 and married at 24 and had it last.
After a true breakup- I usually just have one day thats for me, full on junk food not caring about do I look fat because I know I do. I will think that at least 12 times. Breakups will lower my self esteem from 8 to 2. And now I'm in the middle of junk food part. I ate a whole bowl of ice cream, brownies, soda I'm laying off, muffins, If I had money and worked I would have went to at least toco bell 12 times aswell as dominos...........and walgreens for thier freaking chocolate and fukj it two little coke. Just lay there watching netflix while ive been doing my hw for college all day.
Theres moments in life were you hate relationships and then you think this person is def holding me back, from loving myself. Like for instance i probably just gained 10 lbs today. And I have been slacking in school - hating myself for that. Hating myself for not excersising - hating myself for feeling fat- hating myself for feeling fat.
And when your with a person like that.,...you know its not right. Or its just bad timing. Your not in the right mindset to love urself. When I got into the relationship with my boyfriend, I had lowself esteem. I waiting for him to call, I felt fat when I was naked infront of him, I didnt enjoy the fact that we dont talk like we used to....And I know the spark isnt there. But I'm just a women with feelings that are to obsessive I feel......I always feel too clingy. I hate it. I hate that I want to talk when he doesnt., I hate that he doesnt want to talk and is busy when I am. I hate that things dont and arent working out at the moment..............Because I really love him. But its not going to work out. and I have to deal with it........ ;-;
And Holloween.......I think that I'm going to be a bandit....Like have one hand with a handcuff and have this sexy black mask that covers my eyes on, wearing a skit or idk- make it up as I go along.
Ok so Ive reasontly been dumped by this amazing guy or shall I say retarded self centered sex crazed bum that hardly texted me after the first month.
Ok.............so we'r not really separated I'm trying to save the relationship by telling him we should take a break for two weeks- get some air.
I know I just bad mouthed him....but you dont understand the types of arguements we've been having lately.
Anyways...I dont even know what I'm going to do, I'm tired as heck
And I'm not sure why I'm posting this. I think for hope that everything works out? I know I'm young...I'm 19...But I know people whove fallin in love at 16 and married at 24 and had it last.
After a true breakup- I usually just have one day thats for me, full on junk food not caring about do I look fat because I know I do. I will think that at least 12 times. Breakups will lower my self esteem from 8 to 2. And now I'm in the middle of junk food part. I ate a whole bowl of ice cream, brownies, soda I'm laying off, muffins, If I had money and worked I would have went to at least toco bell 12 times aswell as dominos...........and walgreens for thier freaking chocolate and fukj it two little coke. Just lay there watching netflix while ive been doing my hw for college all day.
Theres moments in life were you hate relationships and then you think this person is def holding me back, from loving myself. Like for instance i probably just gained 10 lbs today. And I have been slacking in school - hating myself for that. Hating myself for not excersising - hating myself for feeling fat- hating myself for feeling fat.
And when your with a person like that.,...you know its not right. Or its just bad timing. Your not in the right mindset to love urself. When I got into the relationship with my boyfriend, I had lowself esteem. I waiting for him to call, I felt fat when I was naked infront of him, I didnt enjoy the fact that we dont talk like we used to....And I know the spark isnt there. But I'm just a women with feelings that are to obsessive I feel......I always feel too clingy. I hate it. I hate that I want to talk when he doesnt., I hate that he doesnt want to talk and is busy when I am. I hate that things dont and arent working out at the moment..............Because I really love him. But its not going to work out. and I have to deal with it........ ;-;
And Holloween.......I think that I'm going to be a bandit....Like have one hand with a handcuff and have this sexy black mask that covers my eyes on, wearing a skit or idk- make it up as I go along.

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