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Hey lovely people, hope you are all well! I finally saw my Neurologist the other day (Bless, he moved everyone about so he could see me before he went away on holiday) and he has put me on Clobazam for another week.
The only thing with Clobazam is, I have been getting awful awful mood swings. So bad that certain instructors at my martial art club who haven't been told I have epilepsy (they are the kind of teens who would gossip and would think it is catching) are noticing my change and I just tell them I am tired or hungry.
I will tell them one day, but for now both me, my mum and my boss have decided it is probably for the best if they don't know quite yet, and if I have a seizure in front of them then they will be told by my boss in a very formal manner.
Anyway, I'm going off on a tangent here! So the Clobazam has really made my mood swings go all over the place. I mean like a rollercoaster, literally.
One minute I am happy as larry, and I am laughing at everything even when it isn't funny, I am bouncing about all happy and what not. Other times, I weep and sob so bad I lose my voice and it's that type where you just can't stop.
Yesterday I went out with my dad, who understood because he has epilepsy and understands the medications from his neurologist, and I was just depressed the entire day.
I didn't want to eat, I didn't want to go anywhere. One minute I was excited because I got Sharpies ( I love Sharpies! ) and the next minute I was depressed because no where else sounded good.
One minute I fancied food,then I didn't. Then I did, then I didn't. Then I wanted to buy something, then I didn't, you get the jist.
THEN I get stupidly agitated, yesterday after spending all day depressed I suddenly got really agitated that the floor hadn't been hoovered, and I didn't want to do anything until it was hoovered. The same with my room, I cleaned it in 10 minutes because I was so agitated.
It's crazy and total hell, I wake up not knowing how I am going to feel, and I am dreading being on this and going back to college, because only my tutor knows for the same reasons as Martial arts!!
Has anyone had the same thing before?
The only thing with Clobazam is, I have been getting awful awful mood swings. So bad that certain instructors at my martial art club who haven't been told I have epilepsy (they are the kind of teens who would gossip and would think it is catching) are noticing my change and I just tell them I am tired or hungry.
I will tell them one day, but for now both me, my mum and my boss have decided it is probably for the best if they don't know quite yet, and if I have a seizure in front of them then they will be told by my boss in a very formal manner.
Anyway, I'm going off on a tangent here! So the Clobazam has really made my mood swings go all over the place. I mean like a rollercoaster, literally.
One minute I am happy as larry, and I am laughing at everything even when it isn't funny, I am bouncing about all happy and what not. Other times, I weep and sob so bad I lose my voice and it's that type where you just can't stop.
Yesterday I went out with my dad, who understood because he has epilepsy and understands the medications from his neurologist, and I was just depressed the entire day.
I didn't want to eat, I didn't want to go anywhere. One minute I was excited because I got Sharpies ( I love Sharpies! ) and the next minute I was depressed because no where else sounded good.
One minute I fancied food,then I didn't. Then I did, then I didn't. Then I wanted to buy something, then I didn't, you get the jist.
THEN I get stupidly agitated, yesterday after spending all day depressed I suddenly got really agitated that the floor hadn't been hoovered, and I didn't want to do anything until it was hoovered. The same with my room, I cleaned it in 10 minutes because I was so agitated.
It's crazy and total hell, I wake up not knowing how I am going to feel, and I am dreading being on this and going back to college, because only my tutor knows for the same reasons as Martial arts!!
Has anyone had the same thing before?