Ok I have no idea how to use this site but if i'm honest I just need someone to talk to who is going through the same/ simular thing. About four or five years ago (i'm eighteen) I was diagnosed with a mild form of Epilepsy (absence seizures) If you're unfamiliar with these they feel the same as 'tonic clonic seizures' however I didnt loose muscle control (therefore remained stood up) and to other people it looked as though nothing had changed. As I was younger and it was a mild form it didnt bother me (if anything I enjoyed the excuse to get out of school every now and then for hospital check ups). It was thought that I had grown out of them as I was seizure free for two years however towards the end of May 2011 I was at work (thankfully on my lunch break as i'm a waitress and therefore carry hot food and drinks) when I suffered the more serious 'tonic clonic seizure'. I am still working my way up to full dose but in one or two weeks I will be on 200mg of Lamictal a day. Although my family are supportive it has been a few months so I think they feel that I am fine and am dealing with it so are moving on but in reality I am worried about how to deal with the change in seriousness or the epilepsy. I am going to University in about a month where the lifestyle tends to be lack of sleep, lack of food, stress and alcohol. All of which were believed to be contributions to my fit. Also as I have not long turned 18 all of my friends are interested in going out however as I work 6 days a week I dont particularly want to risk it as my fit could have been a lot worse (for example if i was carrying a tray of china and hot drinks) I can either abstain from all of the above contributions which may be impossible or see what works for me as an individual. Hard to do whilst i'm working so much. Ok i'm going to be quiet now I think i'm starting to ramble.