Hi! Everyone!
I would like to start with saying that I have had sz. for 35yrs now since I was 3yrs old. I was at a point in my life where I was able to work, and go to school. Except after all the yrs I have had sz. I was never as bad off as I was for the last 5yrs. You see I was just having petite mal sz. and folcol sz. I started having the gran mals within these last yrs. I had to stop working and going to college due to the fact that they consider me a high risk. I feel like I could go back to college if I put my mind to it. Except that I'm scared because I have always had to be in special ED. classes due to my sz. I was able to take classes at college but I was always having trouble keeping up my grades. It's worse for me now because since I started have the gran mals my memory, consitration, and focus are not like they use to be. I feel depressed when I'm around family, and friends, and I hear them talk about what they have accomplished throughout the yrs. Where as I fear that should I try to do something for myself educational wise I would have trouble getting such success for myself. I mean I sometimes feel like some of my family and friends see me as using my condition as a excuse to try to go forward. When in accuality it's like I don't have control over such things as this. I'm always telling my neices, and nephews that I want them to accomplish things in their lives educational wise. I want them to go out and get themselves to go off to college and get a degree so they can accomplish something for themselves. Something that I feel like I have never had the chance to do for myself. Am I the only one going through this?
I would like to start with saying that I have had sz. for 35yrs now since I was 3yrs old. I was at a point in my life where I was able to work, and go to school. Except after all the yrs I have had sz. I was never as bad off as I was for the last 5yrs. You see I was just having petite mal sz. and folcol sz. I started having the gran mals within these last yrs. I had to stop working and going to college due to the fact that they consider me a high risk. I feel like I could go back to college if I put my mind to it. Except that I'm scared because I have always had to be in special ED. classes due to my sz. I was able to take classes at college but I was always having trouble keeping up my grades. It's worse for me now because since I started have the gran mals my memory, consitration, and focus are not like they use to be. I feel depressed when I'm around family, and friends, and I hear them talk about what they have accomplished throughout the yrs. Where as I fear that should I try to do something for myself educational wise I would have trouble getting such success for myself. I mean I sometimes feel like some of my family and friends see me as using my condition as a excuse to try to go forward. When in accuality it's like I don't have control over such things as this. I'm always telling my neices, and nephews that I want them to accomplish things in their lives educational wise. I want them to go out and get themselves to go off to college and get a degree so they can accomplish something for themselves. Something that I feel like I have never had the chance to do for myself. Am I the only one going through this?