hi sue!
I'm looking for left frontal lobe experiences post op. I know how unique we are- there's no way even if someone had my issue left frontal grey matter heterotopia (middle posterior gyrus) with a co-morbid diagnosis pre-op.
i'm left handed but i'm left dominant, despite the entire lobe having cortical damage due to FAS. right is right as rain!
My heterotopia is sitting on my language and critical/abstract functions and possibly visual and motor. all of those things scored either above average or superior on my neuro psych, twice. once in the 90's and once in march. my exec functions are weak, but still within normal range, so i don't worry so much about that- i already have a deficit. the intended location for resection is my go-to! i lose that, i've lost me. as bad as the meds are- and they're doing quite a number, i can't uncut my brain.
i'm also going for depth eeg- as you did, to map my seizures while in extended telemetry, pre-op. they were initially going to forgo it, but the surgeon wasn't confident in time constraints in mapping in the or pre resection, that an accurate mapping could be done. i'm localized and technology has caught up with imaging to diagnose beyond 'epilepsy' and my neuro-psych is maintained over that period. last extended non invasive eeg scored high points with 14 seizures and a useless tip of the status hat!
my plan is basically try- i can't tell you how many places i've looked for post op experiences in left frontal specifically. it's like everyone who's had it, just doesn't talk about it?! i've had a few convos with people who've had LFL due to brain tumours, but that's a different kettle of fish.
so i'm thinking i've read the studies, i understand the issues and risk- either find an experienced, been there-done that person or go with the flow until after the depth eeg and use that admission to get off my meds while medically monitored and if i'm not comfortable with their findings or level of unknowns pre-op, just stay off meds and go back to seizing -roll the dice style- as i was for the past 20 years. (i was medicated- though resistant, name the meds-i've had em) that was back in the 90's. hubs freaked out a few years back when i was down more than an hour and did the unthinkable....took me to hospital! i regret taking the meds.
i have focals, and tc's. auras as well (deja vu--full matrix) they've gotten to a point where they cluster and i go into status when the tc roll on. i keep waking up- or this is a terrible coma i'm in! id like my quality of life back. my eeg shows i don't technically sleep so i'm on clobazam to help let me rest, my tc's are nocturnal.i figure nix the aeds and maintain the minimal benzo to keep it all muted.
i don't even think i car about seizure freedom at this point. i never did before. there was a window where i was hopeful, but now it's more getting my life back. i want off the meds or something?!
the docs can't cite due to privacy and the studies don't address but for seizure and med freedom and slight notes on neuro psych, functionality and psychosis. not really a chit chat i'm looking for! though good reads.
if this strikes a chord- know anyone, any sitch, anything?! by all means- hit me up. i cannot express how much i'd appreciate some help in perspective. and thank-you. i'm glad to hear surgery made an improvement in your case. that's always good to see!