Hi saraelena, nice to meet you. This is a great web site. The people are wonderful and I've learned so much here. It's great to be able to talk to someone who knows what you mean when talking about the seizures you have. I'll try describing what it's like to family, friends and sometimes even my neuro but they just don't understand.
I had my first seizure almost 11 years ago now. It came out of nowhere, they still don't know what caused it. I was put in a coma for 3 weeks just to get the seizures to stop.
I have a Vagus nerve stimulator, it's sort of like a pace maker for your brain that helps stop seizures and I'm currently taking:
Depakote
Tegretol
Keppra
Lamictal
I've been on so many different drug combos through the years that I've lost count of what they are. It's not fun trying to find the right meds that work for you. Someone might be on it and it works great for them but it doesn't work at all for you and you might have horrible side effects from it.
With what I'm on now I've gone from having around 20 horrible seizures a month in the begining, sometimes several a day, to around 5 a month which usually aren't that bad. It took a while to get to that point though.
My neuro is now looking to change things around again because I've started having more seizures. I don't know if you can be on a medicine for so long that it stops working for you (someone else will have to answer that) and that could be why hes thinking of doing this.
I usually never know when a seizure is coming on. If there is no one there to see it actually happen I don't even know I had it. A good bit of the time I'll have a horrible migraine headache after a seizure so if I'm alone and get that migraine I probably had a seizure that I didn't know about.
Stress and lack of sleep are huge triggers for me too. I always try to get a full nights sleep and take a nap in the afternoon. If I go a few days without that nap I tend to have a seizure. I try not to let myself get worked up over thing but that's easier said than done sometimes.
After a seizure I'm pretty confused at what is going on. There are questions that people ask me - what is my name, what is their name, where am I, what the cat's names are and things like that. Simple questions that I should be able to answer but if I'm now fully out of the seizure I can't answer any of them.
Nine times out of ten I don't know who my husband is. I know he should be there with me but I don't know his name or that he's my husband. I've even called him by ex-boyfriends names instead of his. He laughs because half the time I know the cat's names before his, he thinks I should be mairred to the cat instead of him!
I was 26 when I had my first seizure. I had to quit my job and move back home with my parents.
I also can't drive. We live in the country so there's no public transportation and I have to rely on people to get me from here to there when my husband's at work and can't. Luckily my family live next door. My grandparents, who are retired, will take me any where I need to. Dr appointments, grocery shopping and so much more. I know they don't mind, I think they actually like it, but I just hate asking them all the time.
Luckily I've really never hurt myself during a seizure. I've fallen out of the shower a few times and banged my shoulder on the sink but it only left a bruise.
I usually just stare off into space when I have a seizure but I've done some pretty stupid things too. I've scribbled all over my crossword puzzles a few times. Tried to put a pillow in a pillow case on my foot like it was a sock, my husband just gave up on trying to take it off of me after a few minutes. I had one in the bedroom with my husband, I'll let you figure out what we were doing.... The best though I think is when I loaded the dish washer. I thought my husband did it. The plates were every where and all of the silverware was set perfercetly on the drawers instead of the holders. I thanked my husband for loading it for me but to let me do it from now on because he didn't do it right. He had no clue what I was talking about and that's when we realized I had a seizure.
Sorry this is long but I hope I answered some of your questions about things. You're going to find alot of help!