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I have no idea if there is any reality basis for this but I have had a feeling that the postictal state is like rebooting life. For me, the period when I'm trying to sleep, in retrospect, feels like it might be like the beginning stages of life all over again - simple blobs of color without definition, inability to comprehend language, or speak well...
it's similar to what one might interpret the childhood phases to be like where a baby can go "gaga" and see blobs of color, but have no real interaction.
This past seizure I had reminds me of this again, and I even had my contacts in this time, not my glasses, so it wasn't a matter of seeing clearly, or having the ability to, it seemed more about interpreting clearly, for me.
And emotionally compromised, interpreting stimulus at some sort of base, primordial level- guttural- nonsense.
But somewhere in my mind I seem to know that it isn't right - and it brings up the panic/fear response... or that the panic/fear response isn't tamed by the sensibilities accumulated through life by learning because of the memory loss, amnesia from the concussion.
Now it's Friday morning and I had my seizure Tuesday afternoon, and I'm feeling decent but not 100%.
I might have posted this interpretation before now that I think about it... or I'm just having more stupid deja vu.
:soap:
it's similar to what one might interpret the childhood phases to be like where a baby can go "gaga" and see blobs of color, but have no real interaction.
This past seizure I had reminds me of this again, and I even had my contacts in this time, not my glasses, so it wasn't a matter of seeing clearly, or having the ability to, it seemed more about interpreting clearly, for me.
And emotionally compromised, interpreting stimulus at some sort of base, primordial level- guttural- nonsense.
But somewhere in my mind I seem to know that it isn't right - and it brings up the panic/fear response... or that the panic/fear response isn't tamed by the sensibilities accumulated through life by learning because of the memory loss, amnesia from the concussion.
Now it's Friday morning and I had my seizure Tuesday afternoon, and I'm feeling decent but not 100%.
I might have posted this interpretation before now that I think about it... or I'm just having more stupid deja vu.
:soap: